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We will...

Let's try to do better today... I know we can do it... we've done it before.... we have to try... it's a new day... Let's try to do better today

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Realization

I randomly stumbled onto my exes IG page... She has a baby now and just looked so happy and amazingly beautiful forreal... pleasant and funny And she is like a beautiful soul, I'd never say anything negative about her... Anyway... I was looking at her shit... Thennnn I seen another girl I spoke to, and she is being cool with her podcast and cosplay shit and living a dope life... So then I started thinking... Geeez.. I've encountered and dealt with some shitty women, but also I've had the pleasure of dating or talking to some amazingggg women... And I see them and can't help but think for a sec, geeez did I fuck up and let something great go... But then I realized... Ehhh fuck it... Reality is I wouldn't have been happy in the end anyway.... I'm just not going to be happy with anyone... So honestly.. they are great and I'm glad I got the fuck outta there way... And I'm also glad I'm at the stage I am now... Where I realize that NYC is bae... And I'm just gonna be alone... Cause I won't be happy any other way ultimately... And it's weird, cause there are girls ive talked to and we've never argued, never even disagreed, and they are pretty and smart and all that... But I am like paralyzed to the idea of dealing with anyone right now... Cause I know once it gets real... I'll get annoyed and wanna just be selfish and alone... Maybe one day that'll change, but right now I can see it... So I'm just fighting the urge to entertaining anyone I think is dope honestly...

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Relationship and Dating rant...

I’m a teacher… So I’m reflective…. Lol all teachers are reflective… “Did the kids understand that? Did that work? Where did I fuck up today?” So I’m just reflecting about some dating shit right now… And this is about to be all over the place just a FYI…

Yo how many real relationships have you been in… Like even if the relationship is bullshit, you actually call that person your boyfriend or girlfriend… I’ve only had a handful of real girlfriends… like actually people I introduced to others as my girl… But I dated mad people… Been on dates with people once, dated people I link up and try to date like twice a year, built crazy real deal relationships with people I’ve went on several dates with, etc… I’m thinking… Dating alot of people is fun, but it’s not helpful like at all… Lol so off the top of my brain there are three girls I can think of that I’ve dated that are fucking like amazingggg people… Beautiful, we get along well, always have good convo etc… One is like a artist/designer, another is like in the middle East doing some shit, and the other works for magazines or google or some shit, idk she’s dope… Anyway… I think the idea that I was even talking to other people when I dated them fucking ruined me… When I step back and considered actually gettingg into a real relationship with them, I’d take all these other people into consideration… People I was talking to on the internet or texting or went on a date with, etc… And you start comparing them on bullshit levels, like “yeah artist girl is great, but she’s sooo put together it’s too much, or she’s not into this revolutionary shit like me, or I don’t like her laugh” or some shit… Lol I’m obviously exaggerating but I do think it’s like that to a degree… You are dating a few people to try them out, but you start kinda comparing them like you are picking a quarterback for your fantasy league or some shit ranking stats… It hurts you cause you are like… She’s lacking here or too developed here and then you just let people drift away as they get tired of waiting or you focus on something else cause your not focused on anything in particular… And you end up running into them at a party or seeing them on your Facebook feed months later and wanna bash your head into a wall… Like how did you fuck that up… so I guess I’d say… It’s good to date a bunch, but also don’t.. lol like I don’t wanna say throw all your eggs in one basket… I dated some horrible people… But when you decide… “Ok I’m talking to this person” clear allll the external noise if you can… Chill on texting others and shit, and if y'all don’t work out, OK you can then get back in the game… But if you’re playing it while looking for someone, you’ll get lost… You’ll sike yourself out of some shit… My dating days are over… But that’s the blueprint… Your welcome! Lol

How did I get here… Oh yeah, relationships… So i only had a few girlfriends… And most of them are not the flyest coolest smartest people ive dated… Smh its so weird… It’s like they are just right for the time though and I am in the right place and mindset… But I was having a convo with someone the other day and geez people really hate their exes.. I dont… Like honestly I don’t give a fuck about half of em.. the other half are like really nice people and I wish em they best, they married and all that and we never talk so it’s easy to forget them… my most recent ex, I wanted us to be cooler like I told y'all before… That’s not going to happen it seems… But I dont hate her… Idk how she feels about me… But I’m OK… I only have one ex I reallyyyy think is super dope and I can only say nice things and I’m rooting for… Shes from Queens and just had a kid with her new dude… Lol and its all good.. but everyone else… I’m not thinking positive or negatively about, they can all kick rocks, like idc… I feel like I was in some sham ass relationships… like it wasn’t really real on anyone’s end… Saying I love you or meeting fam ain’t matter… When it was time to end it we were all happy to walk away…. And ultimately… I think I’ve had funner and more meaningful relationships with people I was just dating for a long time and not with the people I was seriously dating… but I also think I was just a poor chooser…. So if you have a few people DMing you or linking all your pics, and are interested in dating.. I say take it easy, be patient and don’t over think it, try em out, but not in a way you’ll overwhelm yourself… lol… that way you won’t be distracted… I wrote some other shit, cause damn NYC subway service… I lost it… One thing I will end on though is, I don’t really have regrets and shit… I don’t believe in greener grass… Like as far as I can tell all of these relationships develop their own set of bullshit problems over time… Yes eventually you and the person you never argue with and only laugh with will eventually get into over time.. so don’t miss em if you missed out on em… And yea lets just keep this real… Where we are now..

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