#sappy speech

[astonishng]

so i really want a relationship so badly. like i want to text someone all fucking day, and go to the movies and sit in the back to kiss them through the entire thing and share my deepest fears and thoughts with them. "it'll come, you just have to be patient" is all i've heard, but that doesn't help my loneliness that i'm feeling now.

[boss-the-goofball]

My graduation is tonight, which kind of feels bittersweet. I mean, at the beginning I was not sure if it would actually happen. I was behind half a credit and almost failing Prob and Stats. Though now here I am, getting ready to go to the senior breakfast and graduation practice. Then in less than a month (June 8th) I will be leaving my home state for Basic Training. I guess at the start of Middle/High School I would not expect to take the path I am taking. I don't regret it, every choice I have made even if better ones could have been made. They helped me define who I am as a person and I am proud. Here is hoping, to those who have yet to graduate or are steadily approaching, that you will get there.

[pomerqueen]

Finally at 100

Hi so finally after a year or so and i never really cared about follower counts but yay me and theveracityoftruth congrats on being my 100th follower you win... nothing sorry... oh they're playing me off okay bye

[moved-metabeefcake]

it may not be christmas anymore but it's always time for a sappy speech n it ain't never too late to tell u dudes that metabee rly appreciates this community. ur all pretty swell people && i can't imagine my life w/out my Internet homies around. stay awesome!!

[peaceinpoverty]

Noises

There is a gecko who caws loudly, generally in the middle of the night. The sound is incomparable with anything I've ever heard. Apparently, the amphibian, measuring about 1.5 ft in length with its tail, is used for medicine - its heart in particular. I wouldn't mind killing it and selling it, as it is a valuable good, but that would break my general attitude of nonviolence towards living beings. I used to have trouble killing mosquitoes because of this, and I would try to blow them away. Now, I still cringe at their dead bodies, but don't hesitate from smacking myself when I feel one nearby. Along with the gecko, a mouse has decided to join the reign of terror and squeaks around the wooden walls. At 3:36am last night, the rat began its digging process, loudly shaking the walls of the house. Here, sound travels as well as it would in a steel cave. The rain adds a pleasant mix to the general cacophony. Rhythmic drips fall on a metal pan, patter on the tip roof, and splatter down to the dirt. Tiny rivers flow but dry by the morning, only to repeat the cleansing cycle again. I sometimes think about leaving, not only for tonight, but I will leave soon, in three weeks. I have been here just as much enduring the harsh realities of the poverty I strive to fight. I have been eating minimally, besides my splurges on coca cola and ice cream, and dreaming easily. I dream of warm showers, parties, and mosquito-free sunny Southern California. Those are the most selfish of my desires. I dream of these Burmese refugees learning English and making their own websites. Their success is the reason I am here, and they must thrive when I am gone. I dream of changing the world, but my idea of what the world should be has not become any clearer. Bill Gates recently sponsored a competition to write an essay supporting an innovative use of funding or aid. Of course, access to education tops the list of what to do with aid money, but so does access to health. And what about access to shelter or food or water? I may have worked with students who lacked parental guidance or even some without college aspirations, but they had their basic necessities fulfilled. People in the world are actually struggling and we forget this constantly. It's not only easy, but convenient for us to watch something less guilt-inducing than to know that we (the West/developed countries) are probably contributing to the dramatic wealth inequality in the world. We each have our own problems, get caught up in our own worlds, and the norm for us becomes all we know and care about. I just took a break from writing to scratch a mosquito bite. This occurred naturally with no forethought. It is a part of my daily life now. When they disappear, I will not miss them, nor will I realize I will then be better off than I am now. I believe I will be inspired by the diligence that people in less developed countries have that motivates them to work hard with the dream of increasing their opportunities. But, it is not only up to them to work for themselves. It is up to all of us to try and make the world a better place.

[rottencactus]

100 followers

Yeah I finally got 100 followers. That may not seem like much to you but thats 100 people that want to see/like what I post! I love all you guys and i hope to get more!