films in order: The Old Guard, Atomic Blonde, Sweet November, Long Shot, The School For Good and Evil, Tully, The Devil’s Advocate, The Cider House Rules, and Young Adult
Note: Yes, lately I'm obsessed with angel themes, sjhdjd.
I'LL MAKE YOU BETTER
Sara Deever strolled through the park, a soft smile gracing her lips as the crisp autumn air swirled around her. The wind played with her golden curls, and her boots crunched against the vibrant tapestry of fallen leaves in shades of amber and burnt orange. She savored the peaceful moment before heading back to her apartment, where she paused on the front steps to rest.
Her eyes caught sight of a young girl sitting there, her small figure wrapped in a pale green jacket and a red woolen hat that framed her lost, E/C eyes. Something about the girl piqued Sara’s curiosity, a pull she couldn’t quite explain. Sara sat beside her, her warm smile reaching the girl.
"Hi, I'm Sara Deever. Nice to meet you!" Sara’s voice was as sunny as her smile.
"Hi. I'm Y/N," the girl glanced up hesitantly, fidgeting with her hat.
"What a beautiful name," Sara said sincerely, her blue eyes sparkling. "Are your parents nearby?"
"They're at home. We just moved here," Y/N nodded.
"That must be scary," Sara mused gently. "Being in a new place can feel a little overwhelming."
Y/N shrugged, her nervous energy manifesting in a slight frown. "I guess so."
Sara studied her for a moment. "Are you okay? Everything alright?"
The girl’s response was a mere nod, but her guarded demeanor didn’t escape Sara’s notice.
"How come you're so nice?" Y/N asked, a hint of disbelief creeping into her voice. "I thought neighbors are supposed to be mean."
Sara chuckled softly, shaking her head. "Not all neighbors. Some just get too busy with their lives to say hello. But me? I believe in making people smile."
With a playful gesture, Sara ruffled Y/N’s hair. "What do you like to do for fun?"
Y/N shrugged again, her expression clouding. "Nothing, really."
"Nothing? That’s no way to spend your days," Sara leaned closer, her voice gentle but teasing. "C’mon, there has to be something."
The girl hesitated, then shook her head.
Sara took her small hands in hers, giving them a reassuring squeeze. "Well, we’ll just have to find something together, won’t we?"
Sara took Y/N's small hands into hers.
"Let's see if we can think of something that you would like to do."
"Now? Okay-" she nodded.
Sara's smile wided with excitement.
"What are you interested in? Reading? Crafting? Gaming? Playing sports?"
"I dunno- I never really-" Y/N said nervously, biting her nails.
Sara noticed her nervous expression and gently pulled her hand from Y/N's mouth, pushing her chin up so she looked at Sara.
"There is nothing you enjoy? That's a shame. You're so young, you should be out there exploring and doing something you love. How about music, TV, movies?"
"I don't listen to music and I don't watch TV."
The conversation carried on as Sara slowly coaxed the girl out of her shell. They soon found themselves in Sara’s cozy apartment, which brimmed with warmth and character. Y/N settled in, mimicking Sara’s movements as she removed her shoes and jacket, the blonde couldn’t help but laugh.
"Are you my little copycat today?" she teased.
The girl offered a small smile, her face softening for the first time since they met. They settled into the living room where they chatted for hours.
"Can I come tomorrow too? Same time?" Y/N asked, tilting her head.
"Of course you can. You can come every day, if you like," Sara chuckled and ruffled her hair.
As the girl left, Sara sighed and turned to her calendar. Usually men are her months. But something- something told her to make the girl a month too.
She looked at the calendar again, debating for a while if she really should. After thinking for a while, she grabbed a pen and mark "Month: Y/N" in her calendar.
'She really deserves to be happy, that girl'
Chaz Watkey, Sara's neighbour and dear friend entered the apartment carrying some groceries. "So who's your month now?" Chaz asked.
Sara turned to Chaz and helped him carry the groceries to the kitchen.
"I knew you would ask about the calendar," she laughed.
"You'll never believe who it is."
"Let me guess… The man who goes to the local coffee shop often? Richard?" he asked.
"Nope, you're wrong. It's a 14 year old girl named Y/N."
"A kid? You sure about it? And if she gets too attached? You'd have to tell her about your illnes," Chaz replied.
Sara sat down in a chair with a sigh, dropping her smile.
"You think I do not know that? She's a kid. But I just... I feel like I need to help her. She's a really shy, awkward kid. She's insecure, always biting her nails, and she doesn't have any interests... Nothing that made her happy. I just... feel like I need to step in and help her."
"What are you gonna do after her month goes by? Just stop communicating with her? It was never like this with the men. I mean... What if you get attached too?" he asked, putting away the groceries.
"That's... exactly why I should not have put her name on the calendar"
She put her head in her hands and rubbed her face, sighing.
"But I just can't not do anything. I'm stuck between two decisions... and it hurts my head."
"It's late. You wrote her name. So I think you should just follow your heart with this one," Chaz replied as he took an apple out of the bag and took a bite.
Sara sighed and looked up at the ceiling.
"You're right... as always," she gave Chaz a small smile.
"I wrote down her name... so I should just see how it goes with her."
"How's your head? You took your meds today?" Chaz asked taking another bite of his apple.
"Yeah, my head is fine. The meds work, just a bit of headache sometimes. Nothing major."
Sara looked at Chaz for a second.
"You're worried, aren't you?"
Chaz nodded
"Of course I am. You're dying- you have like a month or so left-"
"... a month or so..." Sara said quietly to herself.
"I know... I can feel it too. I'm just trying to ignore it and go through this last month like it's any other month."
"So Y/N's gonna be your last one huh?"
She closed her eyes and took in a deep breath.
"Yeah... yeah she will."
The blonde smiled faintly, trying to not think about the fact that it's probably also her final month of life.
"Don't worry. Maybe the kid will be a nice distraction?"
"Yeah, hopefully... this will be an... interesting month," Sara nodded.
Sara got up from her seat, still slightly tired.
"I think I'm gonna go lay down for the rest of the evening"
"Good night, Sara," Chaz replied as he left the apartment.
"Thanks for the apple," he winked.
"Good night."
She headed to her bedroom and got under the covers, staring up at the ceiling for a moment before closing her eyes.
The next day Sara waited as she planned for the day she would spend it with the girl. After school, Y/N came. "Hi, Sara," she said.
"Hey Y/N, it's nice to see you again this early," she smiled and opened the door wide to let her in.
"How was school today?"
"School? What scho- Oh- good," Y/N replied as she entered. "How are you?"
"I'm good, just did some chores around the house."
Sara shut the door behind Y/N and looked at her.
"Are you looking forward to today? We're going to have a lot of fun together."
Sara led the girl to her car and they drove off to a local museum of modern art. Sara watched Y/N, the girl's eyes twinkling as if she saw it for the first time in her life. Afterwards they stopped at a nearby café.
"This is really good," Y/N said as she sipped her hot coco and ate her croissant.
Once again her eyes twinkled as if she drank coco for the first time.
"I know, right? The food here is amazing," Sara smiled
The blonde took a sip of her own hot cocoa, looking at the happy girl in front of her.
"I hope you enjoyed today."
"I did." Y/N nodded
Sara smiled and leaned in closer towards Y/N.
"You know, this is only the first day of the month. We have many more days to spend together."
"First day of the month? What do you mean by that?" Y/N tilted her head. "What about all the months after this one?"
Sara leaned back again and gave a small frown, fixing her scarf.
"Well... this month is kind of, hmm... special..." she said while trying to find the right words to say it.
"Oh." Y/N replied. "Why?" she asked holding her cup of hot coco.
Sara's frown got deeper as she mentally prepared herself.
"This month is special, because after this month is over... I won't be able to spend the next month, or any month, with you. I am very very sick, Y/N..."
"S-so... Y-you're saying you're gonna die in a month?" Y/N asked, stuttering.
Sara slowly nodded.
"I'm sorry." suddenly Y/N stood up and sat next to Sara, throwing herself into the woman's arms, taking her by surprise
Sara froze in place for a moment. But soon she wrapped her arms around her and held her tight to her chest.
"I'll try to be happy... for you-" Y/N sniffled. "I promise. We'll have so much fun."
Tears started welling up in blonde's blue eyes when she heard Y/N say that.
"Oh, you sweet girl," she stroked the teen's hair. "That's so sweet of you..."
Three weeks went by and just as promised Y/N tried to be happy for Sara, making her feel better and smile.
It was Friday evening.
"Can I sleepover with you today, Sara?" Y/N asked.
"Of course, you can. It'll be just like a girls' sleepover," Sara looked at the girl and her eyes softened.
Y/N sat up and smiled, her hazel eyes twinkling.
Looking at the teen's happy expression made her a little bit sad inside. She wished she could have more time to see her happy like this...
"Want pizza for dinner? You can pick a movie while I order it," she asked Y/N.
"Sure. Can we watch a horror movie?"
"Heh, sure. You sure you can handle watching a horror movie?" Sara teased.
"Yes," the teen giggled.
"Alright then. As long as you don't come crying to me if you get scared," Sara said jokingly and selected a horror movie.
"And if I do?" Y/N smiled, tilting her head.
"I'll hold you and make sure the scary monsters don't get ya," Sara smirked and put an arm around the girl's shoulder.
"Good plan," Y/N nodded
After the pizza and the horror movie, Y/N fell asleep on the couch. Sara watched the girl for a while then retrieved to her bed.
After some time Sara saw a figure standing in the shadows at the foot of her bed. It was Y/N. "Sara? C-Can I sleep with you?" the girl stuttered
"Of course, you can. Come here," she moved over and patted the empty space in the bed.
Y/N layed down and sighed.
"Sara?" Y/N looked at the blonde's eyes.
"Yes, Y/N?" Her eyes met the girl's hazel ones as she responded.
"You'll be okay. I promise," the girl said.
Her eyes widen slightly at the girl's words. A part of her wished her words were true. But deep down, she knew she wasn't going to make it...
"Thank you, sweetie. I believe you."
"I mean it, Sara," Y/N replied, sitting up.
Sara sat up as well, looking at the girl with a bittersweet look in her eyes.
"I know you mean it, sweetie..." her voice trailed off. She suddenly felt the desire to hold her tight. So she pulled Y/N close to her chest.
She held the teen tight against her, her head pressed against the top of her head. As she held her, she felt a strange sensation. Was it her imagination or was there a soft, white light radiating from Y/N? It felt as if her light was entering her own body...
Something odd was happening. Was it her imagination or was she... feeling better? As if the pain that had been holding her was no longer there. Sara couldn't explain it, it was like a miracle...
Y/N fell asleep, right there in Sara's arms. And for the first time in a while... Sara was able to fall asleep too.
It was morning, Chaz knocked on the door. "Hey, Sara, can I speak to you?" "In private," he added, glaring at the sleeping girl.
Sara glanced at the girl, who was still asleep, and then back at Chaz.
"Okay, sure," her voice still laced with sleep as she got out of bed and rubbed her eyes again.
"How are you feeling? Did you take your meds?"
Sara took a moment to consider the question. She felt different, lighter and more refreshed than she had in a long while...
"I feel... strangely good... and I haven't taken my meds yet, no..."
"I checked the neighbourhood, apparently no one has a kid named Y/N," he said. "I checked the local schools too. No record of her."
Sara ran her fingers through her curls, trying to process what Chaz was saying.
"But... that doesn't make sense. How can no one know her? Where did she come from then?"
Chaz and Sara walked up to the bed where the 14 year old was sleeping, Sara accidentally lifted the hem of her hoodie, seeing bright white wings on her back.
When she lifted the hem of the girl's hoodie, her eyes widened as she saw something strange on her back. She froze in place, shock and disbelief on her face.
She looked at Chaz bewildered, as if saying 'am I hallucinating or do you see this too?'
Chaz nodded.
Suddenly a realization came to her. She remembered the strange sensation she felt as she was holding the girl. The feeling as if a light was entering her body. It suddenly became clear to her... Y/N had healed her. She was an angel.
Soon the girl stirred awake, rubbing her E/C eyes.
Both Chaz and Sara watched as Y/N sat up and rubbed her eyes. She had a lot of unanswered questions, and she needed answers. She approach the teen and kneeled down in front of her, trying to keep her voice neutral and friendly.
"Hey, Y/N. Can we talk for a moment?"
Y/N nodded.
The blonde took another deep breath, steeling herself for the answer she might get.
"Where are you from? Do you have parents or a home anywhere?"
"I already said." Y/N tilted her head. "We just moved here- My parents and I-"
There was something off about her response. She suddenly seemed uncomfortable and nervous. Sara looked at Chaz, a questioning look on her face.
"Chaz, would you mind stepping out of the room for a bit? I'd like to speak with Y/N alone.."
She turned her attention back to the girl as soon as Chaz was gone. She looked her in the eyes, her face serious.
"Y/N, you're lying to me. Why are you lying? You don't have parents who just moved here, do you?"
"You weren't supposed to find out-" Y/N shook her head.
"Then why are you here? Why did you come to me?" Sara crossed her arms and stared at the girl, trying to figure her out.
"He sent me," Y/N pointed to the window to the sky.
Sara's blue eyes follow to where the girl pointed and she looked up at the sky outside her window.
"...You mean God? Are you an angel?"
The teen nodded, tears streaming down her cheeks.
Seeing the tears on Y/N's face stirred an odd sense of protectiveness in Sara. She sat down next to her and put a comforting hand on her shoulder*
"Hey... it's okay... Why are you crying? Why would God send you to me?"
"Because- because you're gonna be my mom- But you got sick so that meant you wouldn't be my mom- So I had to heal you- I had to make you better" Y/N sobbed throwing herself in Sara's arms.
Sara was completely taken aback by Y/N's sudden outburst and her words. Sara was stunned and speechless as she held the teen in her arms, trying to process everything she said.
"Wait… what do you mean.. I'm going to be your mom?"
"I'll have to go soon- B-but y-you'll see... You'll see once I come back, mom. You'll find the answers to your questions," Y/N replied
The blonde felt a mix of confusion, worry, and a strange sense of protectiveness over Y/N. She held her tightly in a comforting embrace, trying to make sense of her words.
"Come back?… You're leaving?"
"I have to. I have no choice. But I promise I'll come back," Y/N whimpered.
Feeling a pang of worry and sadness at the thought of the girl leaving, she held her even tighter, as if her embrace could keep her from leaving.
"Promise me... promise you'll come back... I'll be waiting."
"Yes, mama. I promise."
The next day, Y/N was gone.
The years passed, and life went on. Sara met a man named Nelson, and they fell in love. They were happy together. Life was once again a celebration. However, as the years went by, she still held onto hope that she would see Y/N again. The thought of her promise to come back never left her. She waited and waited.
Soon Sara got pregnant.
One night, Sara had a vivid dream. In her dream, she saw Y/N's face. And suddenly, it clicked. She realised that the baby girl growing inside her belly was the very same girl she had been waiting for all these years. A wave of emotions washed over her as she woke up, realising the truth.
"How are you my love?" Nelson asked, carrying a cup of hot coco, as he kissed Sara passionately.
"I'm fine," the blonde smiled at Nelson, feeling a mix of excitement and nervousness, her hand resting on her belly as Nelson lifted her shirt and kissed it.
"I had a dream last night. It was about her... In my dream, I realised that our baby girl... it's Y/N.”
"The Y/N you've been telling me about? Little angel that healed you?" he asked as he gave another kiss on her belly.
Sara nodded, her eyes welling up with tears of joy and disbelief.
"Yes... that's her. My little angel who was sent to heal me... who promised to come back to me..."
Nelson smiled, kissing her belly again.
"Hey Y/N, baby girl, mommy and I can't wait to meet you," he said talking to the belly, when the baby kicked.
Sara laughed softly as Nelson spoke to the baby and the baby kicked in response.
"She heard you. I can feel her moving," the blonde smiled, giving Nelson another kiss. "Oh, my Y/N," she caressed her belly.
