Jun 24
I know I talk a big game about narcissism but it is genuinely exhausting. Like it’s emotionally draining to believe that with enough power you could really just fix the world. If you just worked at it. If you just fixed yourself. There is an evil burning core in the depth of my soul that believes if I stopped being transgender, started going to church again, and began physically harming people I could truly fix everything and it’s literally creating a giant me-shaped hole in myself. I am so sick of my expectations for myself. All I want to do is rest.