#sarilingmulto

[gersanne]

#sarilingmulto #eyemissu Confronting your inner self is not an easy task; But once you do it, you will gain fresh insight on why you have the problems. This will then help you come up with effective solutions for solving them. (at Camella Homes Subdivision Campetic Palo Leyte) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cd55DlDPzfe/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[the-unfathomable-mind]

Should I be scared of the demons in my head?

[repressedmemories18]

'Sa araw-araw ko

Ikaw ang nakakausap

Ang luha kong nag aabang

Laman ang tinagong kalungkutan

Pikit matang dadalhin

Kapayapaang hihingin

Paano ba pipigilan ang ikot ng mundo?'

These lines just hit the spot. Well the whole song did.

The whole song just reflect me.. 'Sariling multo' are these thoughts that I can't shake off. No matter how I rationalize them or how long I overthink them they just keep coming back. I talk to them sometimes. I struggle deeply to force them down, to not breakdown when I don't have the time.

There are times that I would just be numb and go by my own days. It's good when I go numb, I'm not hurting anymore. Side effect is it also take away the happiness. Well I guess I should be thankful anyless. Numbness kills the pain away. 'pikit matang dadalhin'.

Before I was thinking when would this stop. Me feeling like this. NOW, I guess it's a part of me that I have to accept. And hope that everyone close to me would understand how f*cked up my mind works.

Thank you to IVOS. THANK YOU FOR BEING RAW AND VULNERABLE. NOT ALL ARTISTS CAN DO SO. MUCH NEEDED MUSIC THIS TIME OF SELF ISOLATION.. Everyone has the capacity and time to be one with themselves.