#sarrystylin

[almostaaadult]

Someone tell me it's okay not to have my license before I go back to school. Recently since I've been home, my anxiety has decided to show its face again. It started out as stupid little things making me irritated, but has now grown into little things making me question my quality as a human being. Like saying I'm gonna get my shit together and yet it's July and I feel like I've hardly gotten anything accomplished. I feel so useless. I feel like I'm failing at everything. I feel like I can't fix anything. End rant.

[almostaaadult]

Feeling really shitty tonight.

Because my boy lives far away. And my childhood sucked. And depression and anxiety can go suck a dick covered in herpes.

[almostaaadult]

I love him.

I love my boy.

[almostaaadult]

MY BOY SAID "LOVE YOU I MIGHT"

And I said it.

[almostaaadult]

I forgot how bad anxiety is. Why does my heart hurt so much?

[almostaaadult]

Gut Reaction

I was watching Friends when all of a sudden I felt my stomach disappear from my torso. A sharp second of longing occurred, It didn't make much sense though. You see, it's only been a month And my too strong heart doesn't know that much. So I grabbed this notebook in hopes I would decipher the reaction I had without thinking, But I'm always thinking, And you know that. Then perhaps it's possible I was thinking about you.

[almostaaadult]

I’m really scared that this boy is falling into the “L” word with me.

[almostaaadult]

You’re alright.

Synonymous for “I’m terrified.”

Because the second I say more, more things happen. I fall deeper. It means, I’m giving you a piece and I’m waiting to see what you do with it. It’s the only thing I can give you right now. It’s my only way of conveying that maybe you could mean more to me than I let on.