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Chapters: 82/? Fandom: Mass Effect Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Female Shepard/James Vega Characters: Female Shepard (Mass Effect), James Vega, Jeff "Joker" Moreau, Kaidan Alenko, Garrus Vakarian, David Anderson, Steven Hackett Additional Tags: Romance, Sexual Tension, Science Fiction, War Summary:
He'd worshiped her from afar, always wanted the chance to say hello, maybe to serve under her. Then his mission had gone horribly wrong and he blamed her, resented her for it. Or did he. James Vega finds himself in a position he never expected and has to come to terms with his own pain and doubt. Bioware owns all thing Mass Effect, I'm just playing in their sandbox.
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The enemy numbers dwindled until only the clone and Brooks remained. Time stopped and so did his heart as Shepard charged at the clone and they both rolled over the edge of the cargo ramp.
'Shepard.' He and Kaidan yelled at the same time, both running to where she'd disappeared.
A fall from this height would kill her and James expected the worst as they reached the opening. His eyes stung at the thought of losing her, the idea of following her over the edge at the top of his options because he didn't want to live without her. He almost sobbed aloud when he saw her hanging on, arguing with the clone.
Dropping flat he slid down the ramp while Kaidan hung on to his feet. Hooking his fingers under her armour he heaved and pulled her to safety. The Normandy stabilised and he guessed that EDI had taken control. He watched through wide eyes as Shepard literally kicked the clone off her ship. Some part of him had expected her to save her doppelganger but, like she said, they made this personal. And yet as they turned to walk back into the ship he saw the way she squeezed her eyes shut, how her hands dropped to her sides and her shoulders slumped.
He wanted to hold her, to comfort her because watching yourself die had to be the most bizarre and confusing experience he could ever imagine. Having something you were afraid of appear before you would send you reeling. But she walked ahead of them, distancing herself from her actions and them. Kaidan glanced at him and he saw the worry in his eyes. Trotting to catch up he moved beside her.
'You okay, Lola?'
'I'm fine.'
'Really, because - .'
'Not now, James.' Her voice cracked and she pursed her lips.
'Okay, but we will talk about this.'
She stopped and glared at him and for a moment he thought she would take her anger, grief, regret or whatever she felt out on him. He could handle it, and he would for her. But she gave a slight nod of her head and turned to meet Joker, all signs of her distress pushed into a hole for later as she became the strong, dependable woman everyone expected her to be.
James hated that she did that, that she couldn't let anyone see she suffered. He knew the crew wouldn't see it as weakness but she did. Joker reported on the results of their fight, making special mention of how Steve did some awesome flying and it reminded him that they weren't the only ones who could have been killed today. The ship, the crew and the future had been under threat. Another responsibility Shepard would carry on her shoulders.
'What about the mercs? Any of them left?' Shepard walked with Joker as they spoke.
Joker stopped. 'Just her.'
The rest of Joker's sentence disappeared beneath the pounding in James' ears. His skin burned and his fingers curled as he rolled his neck and bared his teeth. Palming his pistol he watched as Shepard spoke to Brooks, wanting nothing more than to put a bullet in her head.
'Admit it Shepard, you'll miss me.'
Brooks broke free, turned and ran. A single shot rang out and she dropped to the ground.
'I don't think so.' James lowered his gun.
'Ah, maintenance to the shuttle bay.' Joker spoke into his com but James didn't miss the grin on his face.
'Nice.' Kaidan said softly.
'Guess there's no getting through to some people.' Shepard sighed.
They walked off the Normandy, meeting the rest of the team on the dock. Conversation went on around him but James only half listened. His concern for Shepard outweighed everything else. As Bailey approached Shepard sucked in a breath and visibly tensed.
'Maybe now we can have some actual shore leave,' Kaidan said as he walked beside James.
'That would be nice.' Shepard scoffed.
'Shepard,' Bailey stood in her path, 'want to explain why you and your crew are shooting up my docks and the archives.'
James put his hand on her shoulder as she went to speak. 'I've got this Commander. I can give C-Sec a report.' He met her eyes and waited for her to argue with him, silently pleading that that she would hear his unspoken message. Go home, take a shower, relax. Don't fight me, Andy, let me take care of you.
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