I know I said I'd drop a bomb (or at least a virtual one) for my next blog post. But I guess it'll have to wait.
Yesterday, I found a piece of crumpled paper with some doodles and random paragraphs (what's new?) that I wrote a couple of weeks ago and I thought I'd share them with you.
I think the best thing anyone can ever say to you aside from I love you is that You Matter.
One of my favorite quotes from OTH goes, "Your art matters. It's what got me here."This was in Season 5 I think when Peyton was trying to start her own record label and Lucas was struggling with his next novel.
The minute she said those words, Lucas' eyes lit up. My eyes lit up as well. What people don't realize is how these two words go a long way with someone. anyone. everyone. Your art matters- YOU MATTER.
When you realize that what you have accomplished, be it the smallest thing or a drastic change matters to someone, you feel like your life has meaning. It makes all the disappointment, the heartbreak, the fear--everything suddenly make sense. Seemingly enough, and although cliche it may sound, to the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. And it really doesn't have to be the kind of thing that changes millions. With one life changed, he can change another, and another and another.
Because no matter how small it may be, YOU MATTER. And I tell you this even if I don't know you. You probably don't know me either and probably stumbled upon this messed up piece of random writing while searching for something else. But the fact that you are-- even to some tiny extent (and without even needing to tell me), you make me feel like I matter as well.
Let this be a reminder to you that your life matters to someone. Everything that you do has a bigger purpose whether or not it was your intention to begin with or mere circumstance along the way. All the mistakes, the tragedy, the disappointment are a big part of what makes you, you. That's what brought you here. To this moment. You may not have that one person-- that soulmate who will tell you this right now but it can be a friend, a colleague-- even me, someone you don't even know who will remind you that YOU MATTER.
Never give up. Never lose hope that everything is goes to be okay. I've read story after story about teenagers committing suicide. And that's the most tragic thing. Life has only just begun, and they choose to end it. Heck, I feel just as lost as you are on what to do next. Maybe even more. But I'm still here, clinging for dear life on the hope that someday I'll realize my purpose.
Which leads me to today. Let me remind you again that your art, your beauty, your life-- you matter. Don't ever ever forget that.