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either way my body is somatically responding and its my chest hurts and my insides are tight and i feel like a thick molasses is coating my guts

and my instinct is to remove myself before they can remove me but i dont. want to ik i shouldnt so im fighting it but its very hard

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i like this thing so so much and it frightens me esp cuz theyre treating me like how i treated my ex which means i SHOULD trust in it because its exactly what i would do but instead its sending me wacky bcuz since my ex didnt trust me my brain goes what if what if what if

like ik they mean what they say and so i can either react the way i was reacted to (hiding emotions, pretending things are fine when they arent, had ghings held over my head) or i can not assume the worst in this person i care about and i dont want to assume the worst but u am also so so so so scared rn cuz i dont. wanna lose this

im not gna do the unhealthy shit to keep it but that doesnt mean im not terrified the whole time

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did you know its possible to get your own breakup (that you initiated) mansplained to you? as if you didn’t already know these things and as if theyre not WHY you broke up?

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it is kinda crazy how everything can be so wonderful and exciting but so so sad all at once

#change is hard but necessary change is even harder #sayden