Yknow what is really weird and pisses me off? Teachers assigning end of year projects and acting like its a gift because "no more tests"
Just when I feel like im finally almost done with this and I can get that tiny fraction of rest over the summer, I now have 3+ different projects, some possibly group projects, that because of my executive dysfunction i often spend hours upon hours into the night working on and end up not getting enough sleep which makes me more exhausted and closer to giving up. And often these are research projects which means that depending on the subject I choose, I may spend hours or even days looking for good sources because my teachers told me it had to be the best possible ones I could find and since im autistic I didnt realize thats apparently hyperbole?
And then when I complain about this, yknow what I get in response? Just use ai! Gee, sorry I like the planet and dont like selling my data i guess. Even teachers suggest i use it for the planning part of it. I feel insane. Does nobody see that im falling apart? That we all are? That kids are constantly being told contradictory things that only mean to control and subdue us so everything is always our fault? Apparently if i fall asleep in class because I physically can't keep my head up its my fault for staying up late but thats either the only free time I have where I can feel like I have control over myself, im trying to delay having to to to school and have another inevitable panic attack, or working on school work Im never given the right time and resources to do. They tell us not to try to pour from an empty cup but then they poke a hole in the bottom so it cant be anything but. They tell us not to try to boil an empty pot but turn the stove higher. What are we supposed to do? How are we supposed to be human? Im so tired
