sam winchester paints his nails black for the first time when he's in college, going to stanford. it makes him feel somewhat free
sam winchester grows to miss hearing dean call him sammy, but he'd never say that out loud
with every mention of how he must be evil, sam winchester's chest grows tight. if he's anything, he hopes he's not evil
sam winchester never told his father that he was bisexual, and he wonders what john's reaction might be. sam doesn't know if he wants to know
sam winchester paints his nails and picks at the chipped paint every day until it's all chipped off, but he stops doing that when he goes back on the road with dean
sam winchester keeps a gun and a knife near him at almost all times
sam winchester has always smiled with his eyes first before it translates onto his lips
sam winchester sometimes wishes bobby had been his father instead. he pushes the thought out of his head every time it arises again
when dean cries, reliving his traumas, sam winchester does them both a favor and pretends he doesn't hear the familiar sound of someone trying to stay quiet while they let their inside pain go outward.
sam winchester considered getting a tattoo when he was eighteen. he didn't even know what he wanted on his body, he just wanted one to say he did it.
sam winchester has never noticed when someone has feelings for him, and he likely never will.
the first time someone says sam winchester is 'like a golden retriever' he doesn't understand it. (dean chuckles next to him, which makes sam wonder if he even wants to understand it)
sam winchester... never notices it, but he gets smaller when people start yelling out of nowhere
when he's upset, sam winchester listens to the music dean plays in the car
