#seanwhiteyok

[paalove]

bone-dry, bloodshot eyes

Everything went wrong, far more wrong than the gang were prepared for, and far worse than anyone outside the gang, like White, could possibly have predicted. AU where Todd's men don't catch Black; somehow, this makes things much worse.

hehe time at long long last for angsty seanwhiteyok

sorry to everyone for killing your boy(s)

[paalove]

possible first scene (depending on what i decide on for pov) for the seanwhiteyok fic under the cut:

White hasn’t talked to anyone in over a month when he meets them.

His dad had apologised, eyes sad but dry, and his mother had avoided his gaze, and he’d told them there could never be any forgiveness for it, and he’d walked away, and he hadn’t spoken again. At some point, he’ll have to – job interviews aren’t generally conducted over email, he’d got lucky with a transcription-and-translation offer – but for now he doesn’t know how.

Feeling drained and defeated and empty, but the emptiness goes without saying, he makes his way to the water; that’s nonspecific, but it’s hard to think of it as “the spot where Black’s body washed up”.

It’s awful.

He feels the broken end of the connection in his chest, and he wonders if that’s just grief, but he’d felt Black die and he knows what his parents had refused to admit directly – that Black hadn’t drowned. None of the family had been allowed to see the body, they’d said because of the bloating from the water, but he’d place a bet it would be because of whatever had crushed Black’s head like that. Whoever had chased him.

It wasn’t the first time White had felt him being chased, that had come the very first night in Thailand – it had come again several weeks later, and again, and again, and then the last time, and the thing was Black hadn’t felt any more panicked the last time than the first.

He hadn’t known he was out of time to find him.

Because that feels like the worst thing but also the only consolation White has, the fact that he’d tried to find him. He’d begged his father for Black’s contact details, for their mother’s, and when that hadn’t worked he’d once again tried online snooping, he’d gone to everyone who even vaguely remembered him from before but none of them had known a thing, even Todd only knowing that he’d, at one point, been studying law.

Todd’s the only person he feels guilty about not being able to talk to – he’d been the only other person crying.

Crying, which is what White’s doing now as he stares at the water Black didn’t die in.

The water the connection didn’t draw White to.

Because the connection isn’t there anymore.

Tears stream down his face, but he doesn’t sob or make a sound; that’s not really how White cries. It had been one of the first things to tip their parents off about the connection although they hadn’t admitted it for years, the way White would be crying in complete silence before Black would abandon any other task to go to White’s side and-

God, what had Black’s task been?

He doesn’t know, and it kills him that his mother probably does and wouldn’t say. White had begged her.

Silently crying, silently wondering, silently wishing, White can hear the water and the traffic and the thudding noises of people at work, but nothing that’s for or about him; that’s the most he can handle these days.

So, of course, that’s when he meets them.

[paalove]

ot3 - trust

...

“I’m not doing that, I’ll get fucking hurt, he’s like five foot three-“

“-Yok! I’m five foot six! And I caught Sean, he’s heavy-“

“-Don’t be a pussy, babe-“

“-Sean don’t call him names-“

“-I’m just not doing it, guys,” Yok exclaims over the other two, still bickering.

As one, they turn frowns on him – Sean’s annoyed, White’s quietly disappointed, and he starts to think maybe it would be okay-

He has to stay strong.

The trust fall thing off the bed was kind of cute, sure, he liked that – catching White is easy, because again, White’s tiny. He should have asked more questions when Sean started talking about “taking Yok to the warehouse to do the rest of it”, but he can put his foot down now.

While he’s making that decision, the other two have been in a semi-verbal conference, and now they turn back to him.

“So I guess you don’t want to do the one where he catches you after a two-meter jump?” Sean asks with a smirk.

Yok looks between his boyfriends – White’s face is deadly serious and expectant, Sean’s cocky, but neither of them looks like they’re about to break into laughter and reveal the prank – and he realises, “There’s something wrong with you both. What have I gotten into?”

[paalove]

seanwhiteyok... I must know everything about it. it's the rules it said so right there in the post! 🥺

god okay this one is my baby and its also fighting me so i guess it's a toddler? experiencing the terrible twos and whatnot.

from this tag/ask game

random assortment of details:

so the thing IS, if u remember the snippet i already posted from the start of this... black's dead. he's dead, and things are fucked for everyone else in a variety of fun ways, and the first time sean and yok (separately) see white (which is before he sees them) they each think he's a ghost.

but i don't think i've mentioned this part: the reason they see him separately at first is related to the way things are fucked for yok. dan being dead too, and all.

it's my angstiest fic concept and definitely the one with the least healthy relationships! but as with most of my fic there is SO much crying. so much. mostly yok and white of course, but not entirely yok and white. there's some fun in there for my baby sean too ofc

[paalove]

wait what's the seanwhiteyok fic👀

haha it's been a while since i posted about it huh... basically it's SUPPOSED to be my not me magnum opus. i can't remember at this point which idea i had first out of werewolf fic and seanwhiteyok, but it was one of the two, so it was EITHER my second fic idea for not me or my third (fb au was first) and it's literally been fighting me since roughly the day the 4th episode aired? i still intend to post it but WHEN is the question.

so far this is all thats been posted fjnjfrnjrn