Log 2
October 16, 2021
Somewhere along the way, I learned you could love the devil and love God at the same time. I walk the place where shadows and sunlight meet and meld and blend. Where the light and the darkness come together. One foot in one world and the other foot in another. To walk such a path requires sacrifice. It requires letting go and having complete faith in the road leading you onwards. It means willing to be uncomfortable and letting things happen as they will. It means giving up perceptions you were fed your entire life. It means going deep inside and examine everything you’ve ever believed and accepted as true about the world. It means, challenging yourself to see things differently.
Existence is a strange place. An interwoven quilt. Each switch lovely sown. Each piece of fabric chosen carefully. The pattern complex and strange and unfamiliar because you’re one of the threads woven in. A single cell in a greater and larger organism. An apart of a bigger reality you don’t even know exists around you but can sense once you quiet all the voices that tell you what you’re supposed to be, what you’re supposed to do, and how you’re supposed to behave. It’s liberating and yet terrifying. You regain an part of you that you thought you lost or were told didn’t exist.