#sehb

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got inspired to actually make and post the little tidbits of memory we have system wise because of @alteredpanel's work, so here we go!

[simple-really]

Silence is not a virtue. It's a requirement brought on by the fact that my opinion was never yours. That you could never accept me for who I am or who I wanted to be. That support is not the studs lining the house that we built but rather, Your support was the rotting foundation that you were too cheap to let anyone else set. And Our bedroom was painted dark blue to match your personality And the living room was painted a deep red that pairs with the pain when I visit. The dinning room table still sits unused and untouched. And the coffee mug is still sitting on the windowsill where you left it I've moved it once, but the ring left in the rose wood is a better placeholder of your presence than the tossed sheets from where we slept. And writing down our issues seems to be a better way of copping with my issues than facing them head on. Because I am sick of your negativity, and I am sick of the way that you put me down, but I’m not sorry that I don’t hate myself.

You’re in my body like an addict on a binge. I focused all my will on the hope we that could be friends. I never want to hate you, I just want to love myself If it’s too much to ask then I don’t need somebody else yes I may be bitter and the taste is not so sweet But knowing that your happy is the promise that I need After all we’ve been through, you still say I wasted time. Tell me how I broke your heart, cause I still can’t find mine.

And though you had such sunken eyes You swore to me that you’d never cry I saw you in my dream last night You said to me that I would be alright

Darling close your eyes, You need to sleep tonight You can’t pretend I don’t exist I used to mean so much more than this

You are red and I am blue I gave my heart and soul for you. I burned our flames and burned you too. I’m sorry for ever loving you.

Things change and people leave. I’ve given up on everything. To be the person that you need is something that I’ll never be.

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actually before i forget, a lot of us that are similar-ish to sehb have been popping up recently?

we aren’t new, i think, its just... the headspace got redone when Faux formed and now a bunch of us are actually able to find the fucking front, finally!!! like acorn and i... so hopefully others will show up soon too!

though sehbs kinda worried about that, i guess. its not too surprising since until recently he thought we had just a handful of alters in the system and was confused about how he was ‘suddenly splitting so fast’. surprise!!!! youve always done that apparently! dummy.

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📿🎮🥄 I sent these as an ask to another blog but like them so here ❤ have these for the asks as well

!!! yooo danke, i love these ask games tbh? <3

📿 Is there differing religions/beliefs within the system?

Ah, yeah, I guess?

Before Val ‘vanished’ and all, he kinda worshiped Apollo, I guess? The urge is still there floating about and we still sing songs to him and the sun and all, but... Its not as connected anymore, so I have no idea who wants that or if its just a piece of me now or what.

Fae and I worship Nordic deities, mostly Loki to be specific. (and i fucking hate that i have to add this but no im not a racist/n-zi/jackass person, but i wanna add that since im fuckin pale and you know. creeps be like that.) So there is that.

Joxter and I also pay attention to the Breton deities. They’re a celtic group of deities, if you’ve not heard of them (not many have, we only have because family stuff), though I wouldn’t call that worship per say.

Overall as a system though we’re pretty uh, “every deity exists and all pantheons are real but also gods are just spirits and the existence of life is a deity but not a Specific One” whatever that is.

🎮 What are some games that alters like to play, if any? (Board games, video games, etc.)

Oh! My special interest is actually Overwatch. :3 I play on a mini eSports team for it, though I’ve been doing that a lot less seriously lately due to some incidents, haha. I also play Sea of Thieves, though I’ve only just started picking that up, and like shit like Monopoly and Clue a ton.

As a system we tend to pretty much all enjoy BeatSaber, and I’m p sure we’ll enjoy Sprint Vector once we get that up and running...

Honey really enjoys Animal Crossing, and Inari *loves* Ookami. Like, we bought the HD remake of it specifically for them to play and are on our second playthrough to finish getting all of the Stray Beads and such.

🥄 Who has the most/least energy? How does it affect the body when they front?

Sehral has the most immediate energy now, for sure. But they crash and burn pretty fast. Honey has the most long lasting energy, and while he tires himself out, he doesn’t have to stop fronting for several days on end, which is... pretty impressive for our system, since he also fronts pretty frequently, compared to everyone else except myself.

Low end of that spectrum is Joxter, who always is half asleep when he fronts, or at least running on ‘low battery’ mode. Grey is pretty low energy too, though he mostly just wanders about.

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It’s really odd to me that I relate so heavily to Snufkin and yet, the Joxter is what my brain offered up into the system.

I don’t want to think about why. I’m pretty sure I know, but... I don’t want to dive into it, somehow.

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the host : lets buy this expensive item , everyone wants to learn to play it ! well play it as soon as it arrives !

me , kankri , fronting for several days when the item arrives : i have no interest in this at all thank you ! i will be leaving it here for now .

the host : * surprised pikachu face *

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sehbs reviews on me: “hes like honey but he curses”

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System changes, from right after I figured out we were a system, to now.

September 2019  - Dipper, Cobalt, Valentine, Grey, Fae, Luci

August 2020 - Kankri, Dizzy, Inari, Sehral, Atari, Monster, Lull (behind him is valentine), Honey, Fern, Sehb, Joxter, Fae, Luci, Dipper

Valentine and Cobalt merged into Honey, Dipper learned he existed, Luci became more himself, Fae is less actively upset, and Grey hasnt fronted in almost a year, but I think he’s considering coming back. I hope he is, at least.