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We all transform

We all transform

Some in their physical shape

Some in their personality

Some in their mentality

Some in their mindset

We all transform

Some quickly

Some slowly

Some massively

Some a little

We all transform.

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Lately I talked to a friend about being broken.

When they were younger they liked the idea of someone saving them but then they realized that the broken one doesn't have to be saved by anyone. So I told them that "ok" is within the word "broken". Sometimes you just have to change your perspective. Instead of being broken you can also believe yourself to be ok.

It felt good to have changed their view on that so powerful but negative word.

And always remember: Broken crayons still colour.

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I thought you cared

I thought you cared

Enough to ask me how I am

Enough to be there when I need you

I thought you cared

Enough to hold my hand and don't let go

Enough to stand by me

I thought you cared

Enough about me to call or at least text

Enough to make an effort

I thought you cared

Enough when I told you my feelings

Enough

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I am mad.

Yes, yes I am mad at you

You said we are going to do this together

You said you would always be there

and now you chose her.

Yes, that makes me being mad.

I trusted you and you let me fall.

I trusted you and you betrayed me.

Why?

You left me and I’m all on my own

You left me and that breaks me

But guess what?

I’m better on my own.

I’m better without you

No compromising anymore

No adapting to your needs.

I’m done with you.

And don't you dare judging me.

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Regret

You’re open to everyone

everyone may touch you

so many people already did

me included. I regret.

I tasted your lips and it made me forget everything

You were so sweet and promised me the world. I couldn’t get enough of you. And this was my death. 

We kissed - you turned away

we laughed - you didn’t even smile anymore

we spent time together - you were busy all of a sudden

What the hell has happened that pulled you away from me?

If you were truthful to both of us, this would have never happened. But it did and now I have to face the demons you summoned inside of me.

Stay away from me, never talk to me again. I won’t die twice because of you.

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Goodbye and hello

Sometimes we have to say Goodbye to the people we love and maybe life is just waiting to reward us with a new hello We might not know and might not recognise But in the end we will know Sometimes a goodbye is the best choice to make even though it hurts but some things just won’t change so why living in a fairytale Waiting for something to happen but knowing it will not Why keeping our wounds alive Instead of letting them heal slowly, but constantly Sometimes a new hello is all that we need and all we are looking for and sometimes this new hello could be the old goodbye But sometimes a goodbye has to be forever cause sometimes the people we love won’t return and we will have to face the truth we will have to deal with it we will have to live without them And it won’t matter how hard it is Because sometimes you just keep living

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Centuries

It seems to be centuries since you held me since you touched me since you smiled at me since you were there for me when I needed you when I needed your advice your ears who listened to every little thing I said Important or not Making sense or not your mouth who spoke to me to cheer me up to distract me from my thoughts to tell me everything’s gonna be okay your eyes who saw me struggling crying giving up but being resilient getting up and standing back up But where are you now? There is no shoulder left to lean on now No smile left to touch me and make me smile too no tears to share when I was sad It’s been centuries since you were here to be there for me when I could not be there for myself when I needed you

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Second choice

Feeling lost And insecure You make me feel So contradictory So good and bad You tell me You like spending time With me But you don’t come You say you like writing With me But you don’t reply

Therefore I’m afraid When you say you like me That actually you don’t. That you only pretend to That I’m another Second choice For you

I spend way too much time Thinking Writing Talking About you I should stop that Immediately.

Cause in a world Where I’m only The second choice I don’t want to live in Maybe one day I deserve better Someone who actually means What he says And does not let me Feel this way

Being second choice.