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[seizethenight97]

We all transform

We all transform

Some in their physical shape

Some in their personality

Some in their mentality

Some in their mindset

We all transform

Some quickly

Some slowly

Some massively

Some a little

We all transform.

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Lately I talked to a friend about being broken.

When they were younger they liked the idea of someone saving them but then they realized that the broken one doesn't have to be saved by anyone. So I told them that "ok" is within the word "broken". Sometimes you just have to change your perspective. Instead of being broken you can also believe yourself to be ok.

It felt good to have changed their view on that so powerful but negative word.

And always remember: Broken crayons still colour.

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I thought you cared

I thought you cared

Enough to ask me how I am

Enough to be there when I need you

I thought you cared

Enough to hold my hand and don't let go

Enough to stand by me

I thought you cared

Enough about me to call or at least text

Enough to make an effort

I thought you cared

Enough when I told you my feelings

Enough

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I am mad.

Yes, yes I am mad at you

You said we are going to do this together

You said you would always be there

and now you chose her.

Yes, that makes me being mad.

I trusted you and you let me fall.

I trusted you and you betrayed me.

Why?

You left me and I’m all on my own

You left me and that breaks me

But guess what?

I’m better on my own.

I’m better without you

No compromising anymore

No adapting to your needs.

I’m done with you.

And don't you dare judging me.

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Regret

You’re open to everyone

everyone may touch you

so many people already did

me included. I regret.

I tasted your lips and it made me forget everything

You were so sweet and promised me the world. I couldn’t get enough of you. And this was my death. 

We kissed - you turned away

we laughed - you didn’t even smile anymore

we spent time together - you were busy all of a sudden

What the hell has happened that pulled you away from me?

If you were truthful to both of us, this would have never happened. But it did and now I have to face the demons you summoned inside of me.

Stay away from me, never talk to me again. I won’t die twice because of you.

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We just texted for a bit.

It might have been 10 minutes, maybe less. But this little time made my day. Maybe it has just been 5 minutes.

You disappeared from my life. Out of nowhere. Into nowhere. I listened to your song today. You know, the one that you wrote for me for my birthday. It made me feel things. Things I have believed were gone. Things I never wanted to feel again. Especially when it comes to you. I can't tell how much I am sorry for all that I have done to you.

All the pain I have caused, all the tears I couldn't dry. But most of all I am sorry that I couldn't love you the way you deserved it. The way you deserve to be loved. And you only deserve the best of everything.

Maybe one day you can forgive me. Maybe you can't. But that doesn't matter anymore.

Maybe you have just been a dream. My dream.

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Ghosting

Stop ghosting through my thoughts I don’t want to think of you Stop texting me Stop showing up Once in a while Stop that Stop being a ghost hunting me reaching for me dreams not letting me sleep Just let me live my life the way I want Stop faking you like me If you really did you wouldn’t behave that way You would want to spend time with me and not only crave for attention which I refuse to give to you Because I am not available every time I have my own life I don’t need you in there I get along much better Without you Without someone who not even cares even though I cared so much People learn from mistakes So stop ghosting around Just leave and don’t return.