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Hey google

How do I talk to my friends when I want to without feeling like crap

#sel rambles #sel vents #WHY #why is my brain like this #i literally just wanna talk to my friends about random ass shit #or update the ones that are curious #but my brain is like #why #i always feel like im a bother or something...

I should probably leave this to late night shit so no one sees it but I lowkey can't stop thinking about it?? (Considering I've seen a couple people on twitter making a thread about it)

I know I've been rec'ed a couple times... But that's from people I lowkey know...

I wonder when I'll come across a long list, from some rando... And see a fic of mine there...

But... my stuff is pretty old... and it never really got hits and kudos like other one shots released around the same time...

So, I'll just continue being a small writer, and sligthly bigger than that artist...

its weird cause i dont care about popularity or attention... but sometimes i just... crave a little more than usual...

either i entered this fandom too late or... i was just never good to begin with to deserve the attention...

i wonder if im even known outside the pit and au servers... (though even then... i doubt anyone thinks anything of me... considering usually only my friends respond to me... like its a lil clique or something)

i hate envy... i really do... makes me feel like im a shitty selfish person...

and i dont usually feel this way i swear... i know im not the best artist or writer out there... but im not the worst either, i know my worth somewhat...

its more like... it feels like everyone is gassing me up to something im not? and i dont wanna think that way cause i trust my friends... i love them with all my heart... some i even consider family even if its only been a couple days of consistent (ish) talking...

AAAAAGHHHHHH

i guess its just one of those days...

ill be fine in a couple hours dw about me :>

#sel vents #probably will delete idk #im thankful for everyone around me... all the friends ive made...#i just feel selfish...#i really do...#these things shouldnt matter... im already blessed as is having so many wonderful people to talk to... maybe open up to...#i... i feel so conflicted...#i dont know... h #please ignore #please dont see me like this...

i know youve gotten this a few times but >:) ☁️✨🌈 This is the Amazing Person Award! 🌈✨☁️Once you are given this award you are supposed to paste it in the ask of eight different people, who, in your opinion, deserve it. If you break the chain nothing will happen, but it is sweet to know someone thinks you’re amazing inside and out.

Gh-

Wow you caught me at a really bad time but thank you, so much... Y'guys are the best and I appreciate every single one of you...

#i had to do something really hard just a couple minutes ago and i was trying really hard not to cry #but boom #here i am... crying my eyes out. .#i honestly feel like i dont deserve all you nice people...#a-anyways #i didnt mean to mini-rant there...#thank you 💜#i really love you guys... i know i dont show that as much as i should... and that's why im currently going through somethings actually...#but i really do appreciate all of you...#ask sel #sel rambles #sel vents #(?)

Figured I'd say it here too

Deleted all but 2 of my saiouma fics off my ao3

I just wanted to get rid of the guilt so

Yea... I miss my friends comments and i shoulda saved them but

I think that would've made me even more guilty on the long run

And I'm trying to clear myself off of don't things that have been dragging me down mentally

#sel vents #sel rambles