Dear kids and everybody who tried/want to end their lives :
In Buddhism, we believe in afterlives, past lives and karma. They said that it must taks a long long time and a lot of good karma for us to became human, a healthy, whole human being. It is honorable to be a healthy human being. Can you imagine that ? Have you ever thought about how lucky it is that you didn’t lose one arm or one leg when you were born ? Who knows how many time you have been reborn to became a human ? Who knows ? Maybe you were a fly in your past lives, and then you took effort, a lot of effort becoming a human being in this life. When I was a teenager, I always , always want to kill myself. Because I was so sad. People around me keep dying, I skipped schools, I stay at home, reading, drawing, watching movies and shows to learn English very very hard by myself. I was so alone. But after I watch Goro Miyazaki’s, animated by Studio Ghibli , “ Tales from Earthsea ” , and with all the learning in life (new age, Buddhism, Church on Sundays, lots of people’s love and hatred ) . I finally realized life is very important. And it took so much effort to became a human being, to be born, to be able to feel, to love, to suffer, it’s all a gift. I thought it was a nightmare, but turns out it’s a gift. I am so happy that I didn’t kill myself. Because if I did, I’d never learn all these. And I’ll never be able to create what I’ve been creating. And I’ll never fall(fell) in love. And I’ll never found the person I love and willing to spend my life with. I am so thankful, so thankful of being a human. I know it’s hard, I know. But to all the people ,all the kids in here, who is reading this, you might think that you wanna end yourself. But kids, it won’t always be like this. You will grow, and you will keep fighting, it is not the end, my dear. Hang in there, the light is coming, and you are not alone. Live. Stay. Live your life for yourself. Because this life is important too. Your karma, your actions, is a big part of you. It will leads you to where you belongs to. Chin up, kids. Trust. x with all the love and kindness, Chuck. 2018
