#self transparency

[irlactualhuman]

Weird that it feels like coming out to say you like guys as a trans girl? Feels weird. Like I'm admitting on the gay kinky sex website that I'm into hetero stuff in the missionary position. Which. I am. The intimacy is so nice.

Feels... transgressive? Like I'm letting down the gay team? I dunno. Im still queer as fuck. Maybe it's just anxiety talking.

Anyway. Dumb post made me think about my dumb self and I'm pretty sure I'm like. 80% straight. I mean. I can bond with anyone. But as for preference, I skew heavily toward men.

I'll celebrate the revelation, at least. 34 and still learning about myself. Such is life.

[myloveeflows]

When I understand the reality of the strangeness and multiplicities around me it is much easier to be matter-of-fact but I pray my gratefulness for the sacrifices made do not go on unknown.

I do not get to feel the totality of the pain inflicted to make these stands but God knows I do understand as much as is possible without being fully subjected.

Anger masks hurt, I get it but in the moment no one sees the hurt only the anger and without vulnerability most people will be put off and possibly pushed away.