I don't think I find relationships (sexual or romantic) with other people all that important for me. That, and I'm afraid how often they fall apart when either partner becomes disloyal or abusive, or when circumstances push either both away from each other. Watching my sister jump from relationship to relationship hoping to find someone loyal (and not a creep or asshole) over and over again just makes me feel: is it worth it all the stress? To find that one person that makes your life special, but find out later on that they're a huge ass.
Anyway, I think this is one of the reasons why Autospec appeals to me so much. I know myself, I know who I am, I don't need to worry about anyone else should I pursue a relationship with myself. I only need to worry about me. I am aways there for me no matter what. I can't separate from myself ever.
And what do I do to make myself feel special? Well my daydream paras, Pyrrhus most specifically. I feel that through Pyrrhus I make myself feel special and loved. I consider Pyrrhus as a part of my autosexuality. Even though they are imaginary, I feel my love (through them) for me is very real.
Quick note: I'm not plural or have DID. I'm singlet (none plural). I use daydreaming to comfort myself. My paras root from those daydreams. In the immersive and maladaptive daydreaming community, paras are daydream characters. I tend to use them as imaginary friends. Inb4 wait you're 32 why, my brain is autistic and weird that's why.
I think this is why I feel comfortable living the rest of my life just by myself. No partner, but me. Maybe I might find someone I like later on, but I think I'm enough for me.