Tagging: Rachel Berry
When: 17th of February (before school)
Where: WMHS auditorium
General Notes: Rachel sings in the auditorium and tries to work through her feelings about Quinn and Puck
You got a lotta nerve to say you are my friend
When I was down, you just stood there grinning
You got a lotta nerve to say you gotta helping hand to lend
You just want to be on the side that's winning
You say I let you down, you know it's not like that
if you're so hurt why then don't you show it?
You say you lost your faith, but that's not where it's at
you have no faith to lose and you know it
I know the reason that you talk behind my back
I used to be among the crowd you're in with
Do you take me for such a fool to think I'd make contact
With the one who tries to hide what he don't know to begin with?
You see me on the street, you always act surprised
you say, "How are you? Good luck," but you don't mean it
when you know as well as me you'd rather see me paralyzed
why don't you just come out once and scream it?
No, I do not feel that good when I see the heartbreaks you embrace
if I was a master thief perhaps I'd rob them
And now I know you're dissatisfied with your position and your place
Don't you understand, it's not my problem
I wish that for just one time you could stand inside my shoes
And just for that one moment, I could be you
Yes, I wish that for just one time, you could stand inside my shoes
You'd know what a drag it is to see you
Rachel held the last note before wiping the tears from her eyes. She hated feeling weak and like she was useless. She hated that she ever trusted somebody from McKinley Heights. They were all the same. They didn’t care, fuck most of the Lima Heights kids didn’t care… more like Quinn didn’t care.
“Quinn, everything comes back to Quinn fucking Fabray.” Rachel muttered to herself.
She was the girl who broke her heart after making sure Rachel gave her everything. She was the girl who never came through and made Rachel wait time after time for her. She was the girl who Rachel wasted her time with when she could have been seeing if the chemistry she and Puck shared was something. Or it could have saved her from being hurt by a McKinley High kid who thought he was better. Or it could have kept her in the same spot she was. With nothing. Rachel had lost so much over the past week. Her girlfriend, her first love and one of her best friend’s and Noah. A boy she opened up to in ways she couldn’t even do so with Quinn.
Wiping harshly at her eyes, Rachel let herself sob quietly on the empty stage thankful that nobody ever arrived to school this early. She understood why she was so devastated about losing Quinn, for more than one reason but Rachel didn’t understand why she was so hurt, so sad over knowing Noah had slept with Kitty. Maybe it was the fact that Kitty reminded her on a daily basis just how worthless she was and maybe Rachel believed her, somewhere deep down. Knowing that Noah would choose sex with the girl Rachel hated over their friendship cut deep, deeper than she thought it would. With one last shaky breath, Rachel composed herself as best she could as she tried to block out the feelings of heartbreak she was feeling. Standing up, Rachel ran her fingers through her messy hair and grabbed her bag before exiting the stage and made her way to the bleachers to smoke before school started.
