#selfish fighter

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How do you think Anri, Izaya, and Vorona would react to feeling jealously for the first time in a long time btw I love this blog and your writing style!

Anri is not familiar with jealousy, or any other negative emotions in general. So she’s confused to the point of frustration because she’s not sure what it is and she doesn’t know who to talk to about it. Even though Kida and Mikado are always willing to lend her a hand and help her however they can, she doesn’t feel like this is the sort of thing she should be talking about with them. The frustration turns into misplaced anger but she’s good at emotionally detaching herself as a defense mechanism. But, lets say, if she gets a chance to go against Izaya (since Izaya is one of the few people Anri’s actually ever been angry with in canon) she’d probably let out her anger on him under the guise of “you might ruin my friends so I’m not letting you hurt them again.”

Izaya’s gotten so good at managing his feelings that if his feelings manifested into a concrete item it would be a well organized filing cabinet; jealousy is a feeling that he has long distanced himself from but that doesn’t mean that he isn’t prone to it. He’s jealous of Shizuo, but he’d never admit that to anyone, or even himself so like Anri he purposely misplaces his jealousy into anger or malice or mischief. He’s only really been jealous of a few people, the main three being Shizuo, Shinra, and Celty.

Vorona understands that what she feels is jealousy but she’s never really had an outlet for it. She’s an assassin and she’s taught herself too how to set her emotions aside because work is work and sometimes emotions can get in her way. But ever since she started hanging around Shizuo and Tom, she’s let herself feel the things that she’d been putting away. So, though it takes time, she embraces the feeling of jealousy and lets it consume her for a short moment, lets herself be angry or sad or whatever byproduct emotion that comes with her jealousy. And after she’s had her moment she rationalizes and goes back to her usual pragmatic and smart way of thinking and acting.

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How would Anri, Mikado, Izaya, Shizuo, and Masaomi react to seeing all the ships and fanfictions that involve theM

Anri actually wouldn’t understand– Or find it at all. She has very little online presence and usually it’s just in the DOLLARS chatroom. The only way she’d come across fanfics of herself is if someone linked it to her. And no one really wants to link them to her. Anri doesn’t deserve to see how much her personality’s been debauched.

Mikado finds it pretty quickly. He’s partly disturbed and partly flattered. Disturbed because “people are writing things about me????” and flattered because “people think I’m interesting enough to write about.” Surprisingly enough he reads the fanfics that involve him though he stays away from the rated M stuff. As for ships he’s kind of morbidly curious as to why people would ship him with who.

Izaya probably writes his own fanfiction of himself. Like really badly written fanfiction. Think of My Immortal from the Harry Potter fandom. An excerpt is like this:

Hi my name is Izaya Orihara and I have long ebony black hair and blood scarlet red eyes like the fires of hell and a lot of people tell me I look like satan (AN: if u dont kno who he is get da hell outta here!). I’m an informant (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly black. I love Hot Topic and I buy all my clothes from there. For example, I’m wearing a black shirt with matching black pants with sleek black shoes. And of course my signature black coat with the fur trim. I was walking around Ikebukuro. It was raining so there was no sun which I was happy about. Shizu-chan stared at me. I put my middle finger up at him.

Shizuo, like Anri, has little to no internet presence. He doesn’t even know what fanfiction is.

Kida looks for all the ones that involves him and Saki. He is severely disappointed in the lack of his favorite ship, and also disappointed because they can never write Saki right. He gets straight up pissed off when he comes across IzaKida. But he actually likes his and Mikado’s ship. But also never the rated M ones. He and Mikado read fics of themselves together to get a laugh.

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After that last scenario about Saki not being home, I can no longer hold myself back--!!! Do you have any headcanons of the the four awkaward babies being in a polyamorous relationship together??

KAO RIPS OFF HIS SHIRT.

POLYAMORY WITH THIS OT4 IS SO GREAT!!!!!!!!

Saki and Anri have coffee dates together. Lots of bonding moments like shopping (Anri doesn’t know how to shop honestly, Saki helps her pick out nice cute clothes), working out at the gym (Anri wants to make sure that Saki is strong enough to at least throw a punch that can knock someone out), cooking together (they’re both bad, they’ll burn the kitchen down accidentally).

Kida and Mikado are generally the same as they always have been, though Kida is slowly getting Mikado comfortable with the idea of kissing and holding hands and generally being more physically comfortable with each other.

Anri and Mikado are still pretty awkward but they work things out together. They discuss things like Responsible Adults but ultimately, when they end up with a moot point, they invite Saki to help them discuss and settle things because Saki is a really good mediator (not that Anri and Mikado are arguing, it’s just cause they’re not used to talking about emotions so it takes a lot of prompting from Saki to get the ball rolling).

Kida and Anri are honestly like best friends but with romance involved. Kida helps Anri with her laundry, walks her home after class, etc. But he has deep conversations with her too, reminds her that she doesn’t have to tackle everything by herself. If she thinks herself as imperfect, Kida tells her that he loves her despite all of that, and because of all of that. He loves her for everything that she is.

Mikado and Saki and like a puzzle duo. They like doing weird things together. It’s mostly weird because the two of them are really different from each other but they have oddly very similar interests. They watch sci-fi movies together, discuss alien and conspiracy theories together, and among other things they go to the arcade with each other to win stupid looking toys for their lovers.

They have movie nights, bundled up in one small apartment with blankets on the floor and pillows everywhere. Dinner is popcorn and various bags of potato chips. The movie choices range from romance to horror to obscure indie films that Saki somehow managed to get her hands on.

Cuddle Puddles started by Kida. They all kind of just drape themselves around each other when they need emotional recharge. Anri’s the shyest about it (at first she just sat next to them and leaned her head against their shoulder. Now she just lays her head on their lap when she needs it).

Saki and Mikado are more open about things compared to the other two, which is also why they probably get along so well.

Roadtrips together to nearby provinces. (When they’re old enough) Kida drives, Mikado’s shotgun, the girls are at the back. Kida’s not allowed to touch the radio, Anri can drive the longest because she can stay awake the longest. Saki ends up shot gun most of the time because she doesn’t like driving but she talks a lot so she keeps the driver awake. Mikado is also not allowed to touch the radio. Lots of singing along to Disney songs.

Their first trip to Disneyland together was a disaster. They lost Anri after the first 10 minutes and Saki decided the fastest way to find her was to page her. Anri’s face was red for a full hour. Mikado wants to ride all of the Really Fast rides. Kida pukes after the third one. Saki keeps wanting to ride all the kiddie rides. They watch the fireworks and they all end up taking a long nap in their car before driving home.

Whenever someone asks who’s dating who, they keep giving different answers to confuse everyone out of spite because no one needs to stick their nose into their very warm and loving relationship.

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Can you do one where Masaomi noticed Saki wasn't there when he got home and at first he wasn't really that worried but he increasingly gets more worried and anxious as time goes on. And so he goes out looking for her and at some point asked Mikado for help only to realize he was in a similar situation with Anri. You can do whatever in the middle but id like it that at the end they find out that Saki and Anri were just hanging out around town or something. Love this blog btw!

Things were finally peaceful. Itwas a little bit weird if he were to be honest, he’d been living in constantbattle with himself and with the world for so long that a peaceful life wassomething that he could only dream of. But actually having that dream as areality was almost too overwhelming for him; he’d been living every day sinceeverything ended like a daydream. Bright smiles and warm company, carelessdays, moments where he could live the life of a stupid teenager.

Saki wasn’t home.

Saki wasn’t home.

No need to panic, no need tofret. They were safe now; Ikebukuro was as peaceful as a city could be. They’dface the worst that could happen, surely anything else thrown their way wouldbe nothing more than a minor inconvenience.

He decided that a walk around thecity would be fun. And it was. He saw familiar faces, new faces, people happyjust to be with friends. He saw and chatted with his comrades, those people whostood by him when he felt the world was shattering around him. He smiled atthose who have always guided him, those who’ve treated him like an adult butalways remembered that despite his maturity he was still a kid growing up.

He lived and breathed Ikebukuro.This was his home, this was where his family resided.

Where was Saki?

She’s safe. Just having fun, justas he was. Just because they were dating didn’t mean they had to spend everywaking moment together. She had her own life now too, she had her own wings tospread, especially now since she was no longer under the control of thatbastard of a man. She was free, free, free, and he wanted her to know whatfreedom tasted like.

She was fine. Probably. Mostlikely. Of course she was.

Saki’s a strong girl despite herlooks. Clever to a fault, even; what she lacked in physical strength orfighting skill she made up for with her charms and looks and brains. Despitehow much he despised Izaya Orihara, he was still a smart cookie and she learnedfar too much from him. She’d be fine.

Mikado was a welcome distraction.His bright eyes, happy smile, enjoyable company. His blood brother, meek andmild but wild beneath that exterior. Kida loved him with his all, would crossworlds and walk through hell countless times for him.

He could not stop his anxiety. He’ddecided that confiding in Mikado was something that he should always do fromnow on. “I’m worried about Saki.”

Mikado tilted his head inquestion. He did not know Saki all too well just yet, but he always made aneffort to bridge the gap between them; he wanted to be friends with the girlthat had stolen his playboy friend’s heart. “Did something happen?”

Kida rolled his shoulders in ashrug. He knew he was probably over thinking things but he couldn’t help but beparanoid. “I just... I just don’t know where she is.”

“Are you out looking for her now?”Mikado asked. After everything that’s happened, he’d grown up some despitehaving his always enthusiastic personality. “Well I was looking for Anri-chantoo. We were supposed to meet up today but... I guess she forgot...”

“She stood you up,” Kida joked,bodily draping his arm over Mikado’s shoulder. “Alright. Then this is a man’squest, looking for the loves of our lives together!”

“Why does everything have to beso dramatic with you?”

It was easier to forget theirworries when they were together. In fact, they did forget for a moment thatthey were on a quest. They were just boys, young and free and painting the townred. The world was at their fingertips and nothing could stop them

--except for a voice.

“You look as if you’re enjoyingyourselves.”

Kida smiled brightly even thoughhe didn’t see the face that the voice belonged to. He could recognize itanywhere. He spun around, Mikado’s shoulders still locked underneath his arm. “Myprincess!”

“My prince,” Saki replied with awry grin. She did a curtsey. Anri beside her fidgeted, but there was a smile onher face.

“How I’ve missed you!” Kida saidloudly, too loudly, already drawing eyes to their little group. “You know notthe seas I’ve travelled, the wars I’ve fought, just to see your lovely smileonce more.”

“Hi Anri-chan,” Mikado greetedless theatrically.

“Ah, Mikado-kun. I’m sorry, Iforgot to text you back,” she bowed her head apologetically. “I didn’t planthis—“

“Sometimes in life, things don’tgo according to plan,” Saki interrupted. Kida’s arm was around her shouldersnow protectively, holding her close with his cheek pressed against the top ofher head. “Take for example: I never knew that Anri-chan would become so dearto me.”

Anri could not help the blush onher cheeks. She’d gotten used to both Mikado and Kida telling her how much theycared for her. It was always a new experience when someone else started to carefor her too. “Mikajima-san...”

“I told you,” Saki insisted witha small pout on her lips but a gleeful glint in her eyes. “Just call meSaki-chan.”

“Onwards!” Kida shouted. “For together,we will overcome new conquests together!”

“E-eh?” Anri asked, somehow beingswept along in both Kida and Saki’s magical world.

“A double date,” Mikado supplied,keeping up pace with them. “After a while, you start to understand how to decipherKida-talk.”

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ohh could you do a scenario where Anri accidentally (or maybe not accidentally, it's up to you) manages to cut Izaya with Saika? idk if that's been done before. thanks, Kao!

She was aware that Izaya Orihara was a tough one. He was clever, smart, fast, and surprisingly strong for his stature. But Anri’s been against stronger people before, and they always underestimated her because of her size, her gender, and she tended to use that against them.

But she couldn’t against Orihara Izaya. He never underestimated anyone, maybe overestimate, but rarely underestimate. He saw the potential that everyone was capable of, believed that people could be the best versions of themselves if they were just pushed a little bit.

The best, and of course, the worst.

Which is why Anri finds herself surprised as she watches a trickle of blood roll down from the cut on Izaya’s cheek. The one she inflicted, the one she didn’t think would land.

His eyes turn red, as most eyes usually do when a person is cut by Saika.

Anri lowered the blade but her grip was still firm as she watched Orihara Izaya’s eyes flicker from red, to normal, to red, for several moments.

It was not unusual or out of the ordinary for someone to override Saika’s power, or to embrace her power, like how Niekawa-senpai has or how her mother before her has, or how she has too.

But Saika didn’t like Orihara Izaya.

Orihara Izaya didn’t like Saika.

Most people usually became her children instantly. Sometimes they didn’t, not when the will of the person was strong.

You can’t let him beat you Anri found herself thinking, hoping Saika would hear her words. It wouldn’t be good if Izaya ended up having control over Saika too. Maybe it was a bad idea to do this after all.

And for a short, nerve-wracking moment, Izaya went still.

Anri held her breath.

Until finally she was staring at red glowing eyes, until she finally saw glimpses and images of what Izaya’s seen in his whole life, voices of people he’s met and conversed with, little flashes of the life that Orihara Izaya has run up until that point.

It was too much, too confusing for her to understand completely.

Even though logic was telling her that now, in his state, Izaya wouldn’t hurt her, she couldn’t bring herself to put the blade down. “How... Are you feeling?” she asked almost awkwardly.

“I’m upset,” Izaya answered back honestly, with an irritated look to his face. “I don’t like what you’ve done to me mother.”

Anri breathed out a sigh of relief. “Why?”

“I’m infected by a monster like you,” he hissed.

He was her child now, but very reluctant and unhappy to be so.

“I want you to stop ruining the lives of others,” Anri said slowly.

“That’s vague,” he answered back.

“You know exactly what I mean,” Anri replied a little forcefully, her eyes glowing just a little brighter.

“Yes...” Izaya gave her a scowl. “Mother.”

Anri wondered if it was really going to be this easy.

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Since it's been running in my mind for quite a while, how would a relationship between Anri and Shizuo would work if their age is the same (a romantic one maybe?) Since shizuo think he was not a human and the same went for Anri

They’d actually be a well balanced couple if they worked some stuff out.

First off, Shizuo, at some point, would have probably saved (same age) Anri which would get Anri to trust and respect him. Anri wouldn’t see him as a possible love interest but more like a good friend that she can trust and rely on. Not that she actually relies on Shizuo since she can defend herself perfectly well if she wanted to.

Shizuo will appreciate how quiet Anri is. They’ll probably have long talks about what it is to be human and they’re both pretty self depreciating. They’ll keep telling each other “no, you’re better than what you think of yourself” and then one day they’re just going to realize how silly they both are. They both see the worst in themselves but the best in each other.

Their relationship, as a romantic one, will bloom very slowly. They’ll become friends, and then good friends, and then great friends, and at this point Anri will admit that she has Saika within her. Shizuo doesn’t think its weird since, hey, one of his best friends is the headless rider. And Shizuo’s acceptance makes Anri feel more validated, that even if she was a parasite there were people who still liked her anyway.

After that they’ll probably become the kind of friends where you can’t tell if they’re dating or not. They don’t need labels, at least they don’t think they do, until the day they finally kiss. When they do, they talk about it because the main pillar of their relationship is talking and understanding each other.

So as a romantic relationship? Shizuo x (same age) Anri is a really, really good ship in Kao’s eyes.

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Hello, Kao! Out of curiosity, how do you think a relationship (romantic preferrably?) would work out between Anri and Saki--given that neither are involved with Mikado or Kida?

Hello!

They would get along swimmingly as friends and as well as lovers!

She doesn’t really create deep relationships with anyone, not because she doesn’t want to but because she doesn’t really think she deserves it. But with Saki, she wont really have much of a choice. Though during the first season of Durarara!!, Saki was a pretty boring character, just a plot device to give Kida a tragic backstory. And even though she eventually broke out of her “spell” under Izaya, she was mostly just an emotional pillar of support for Kida.

But even later on in the plot, she develops more character. She’s not just Kida Masaomi’s lover, but now she was a girl who wanted her man and would go through any means to make sure that they stayed together. This was something she was doing for herself, not for Izaya, and not for Kida. This was completely her. When she confronts Anri at her apartment, she was able to very calmly converse with Anri and she was also able to calmly confess that she had the intention to burn down Anri’s home if she gave a half-assed answer. Saki is more intimidating than she seems, and she’s very pushy too. It’s not too extreme to say that she probably learned a lot under Izaya, so she probably knew the right words to say to get Anri to let her into her home.

So what does this mean? As a lover, Saki would probably help Anri grow just as she did with Kida. She’s blunt and honest and points out the flaws of her lover and provides the support that they need.

Kao imagines that Anri wouldn’t tell Saki of Saika, but Saki would eventually catch on if she were constantly in Anri’s presence.

And then Anri as a lover, she’s not very receptive. But it’s not because she hates Saki or anything, but because she just never considered herself to be a relationship kind of person.

Their relationship as lovers would probably start out as them being friends, then good friends, then really good friends. Anri doesn’t think too much about it but she’s grateful and she only really starts questioning their relationship when Saki asks “you mean we’re not dating?” Because Anri’s never dated before, and she’s never even considered dating a girl before. So it takes her a lot of time to mull over the idea, and Saki is more than patient, and eventually she gives it a shot.

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C, k, u, v and y for Masaomi, Anri and Karisawa, please? Except for the ones that you've already done, of course!

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

Kida doesn’t really think much of it. It’s just discharge from his body so he doesn’t really care.

Anri gets a little bit uncomfortable because it’s a little bit too thick and slimy and Kinda gross. She doesn’t really play with herself much so she isn’t used to the feeling of it yet.

Karisawa doesn’t think much of it either, though she likes to have extra lubrication because the slippier the better.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Already did this for Kida.

Anri might be into light bondage. For someone who can control others so easily if she wanted, she’d like to at least know what it feels like to lose control for once.

Karisawa has too many probably. Too many to count. She probably wants to reenact sex scenes from manga and anime.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Already did this for Kida.

Anri doesn’t like to tease at all. She doesn’t see the point in it, nor does she get much fun out of it.

Karisawa loves to tease. Verbal teasing, physical teasing, you name it! She likes to see her partner squirm.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

Did this for Kida already.

Anri is very, very quiet. So quiet that her partner usually worries because they think she’s not enjoying herself. So she constantly has to reassure her partner that she’s enjoying it but she gets shy when she has to.

Did this for Karisawa already.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Kida is a horn dog, no lie, but he has his priorities straight so his sex life is not at the top of his hierarchy of needs.

Anri is probably asexual to be honest, or at least demisexual.

Karisawa’s libido isn’t too high despite how adventurous her sex life is. It’s just that when she gets really into it, she is really into it.