#selfmxdicating

[ofbelief]

@selfmxdicating liked here for a starter. She was acutely aware that she was pushed up to the other (which made her mildly nervous and uncomfortable) but she had no choice. There was no way around this situation and she felt her legs buckle with fear. There was no mistaking how utterly terrified she felt, and she tried her hardest not to breathe too loudly to alert the predator to their location--unlike the one beside her. Nathan seemed to be muttering under his breath and Kate couldn't help but turn to him, hues pleading for him to calm down. ❝ Nathan..we have to be quiet...he will hear us.  ❞

[rustedxmetalxheart]

A moment of weakness

16: My muse is kidnapped and yours has just rescued them

@selfmxdicating

    Chloe was lying on the cold, porcelain floor of the Dark Room, with hazy eyes fluttering open and looking around frantically as she began to finally come to. She didn’t remember much, only being completely frozen in place, unable to move while… somebody had been taking photographs of her. Terrifying, intimate photographs, while a man talked to her in a now frighteningly soothing voice. It wasn’t until she whimpered pathetically in terror that she saw him. Mark Jefferson. Her noises had grabbed his attention, causing him to rise from his desk in the corner and look towards her with that relaxed, creepy smile. “It looks like the guest of honor is awake.” He whispered coldly, like a snake. The man took a single step towards Chloe before the sound of a vault door opening caused him to recoil abruptly, cocky expression immediately dropping to one of shock. He hastily looked towards the door, out of Chloe’s line of view. Jefferson opened his mouth to exclaim something, but the sound of several gunshots cut him off, at least two consecutive bullets ripping through his white shirt, dropping the teacher to the floor on his back. Dead. Chloe only lied curled up there in fear, wrists bound by duct tape with her short blue hair disheveled - leather jacket, hat, boots and jeans tossed aside by the photographer when he brought her in, leaving the girl feeling completely exposed. Once her apparent savior had entered into the room hastily, eyes widened in utter shock at the sight of Nathan Prescott, standing over the body of Mr. Jefferson with a smoking gun held by his side. The same gun that had almost shot her several days before, and had been drawn on Warren in the boy’s dorms just earlier that day. Or — was it that day? Once Nathan looked over towards Chloe and their eyes met, she didn’t know what to think. Is he going to kill me now too? The answer was quickly revealed a resounding ‘no’ as the Prescott placed the gun back into his jacket with a worried look, hurrying towards her.

  “N-Na-Nathan? W-what is this? W-where the fuck am I? What did he d-do to me…?” The girl choked out through forming tears and growing confusion, bare legs pulling up closer to herself as she tried to look away from Nathan, but failed. “W-why are you here?”

[quccnvictoria-blog]

"mixtape"

Pills - The Perishers

Crystalised - the xx

Young God - Halsey

The Come Down Champion - July Talk

I Wish I Could Tell You - Chloe Howl

[sufferixg]

if heather was in life is strange, so headcanons i like with @selfmxdicating heather thought nathan was some prep boy and ignored the hell out of him they talked once when they were both outside smoking but she thought he was a little psycho by his actions he dropped his pills and yelled at her for trying to help him and she was like chill im just being nice, asshole ignored all the parties invites from people because she hates social interactions only spoke to him if he spoke to her   heather demanding answers about the video and being VERY angry with him, like don’t talk to me for a week mad heather telling him off when kate either killed herself or nearly killed herself because she knew about the videp feel like nathan beat up a guy for her when said guy was harassing her and she was like i could’ve done that but was grateful at the same time friendship SLOWLY took time due to their standoffish personalities heather constantly worrying about him but never asks about his pills or anger   nathan being three years older than her is my sin heather taking nathan to a metal concert and putting ice to his black eye from the mosh pit saying ‘ur kinda cool, i guess’ nathan and heather going on small trips to creepy places since they are dark and creepy like that heather asking if he can spend the night only because she doesn’t like sleeping alone due to her nightmares nathan being there when she found out that her dad was murdered and they listened to his whale songs for an entire night without speaking to each other stuttle hand touches are enough for both of them   nathan teaching heather photo skills but messing up on purpose so he can show his passionate side about art nathan keeping heather away from mr.jefferson is my SIN too nathan being heather’s first everything; kiss, sex, etc.  because she has never allowed anyone too close to her due to her background nathan holding heather’s hair when she pukes due to drinking too much heather telling nathan’s dad he is a piece of shit in front of nathan bc she is so mad a father can treat a son like that  heather saving nathan from his death him accepting her demonic powers despite her freaking out that she could hurt him without meaning to them leaving his town to FINALLY BE HAPPY AND JUST BE TWO YOUNG PEOPLE THAT ARE HAPPY

[sufferixg]

yo but a thread with @selfmxdicating when heather saves him with her crazy powers from mr.jefferson. like she is recovering from her father’s murder and seeing someone about to kill another person she cares about just sends her over the edge. and she freaks out if she seriously wounds mr.jefferson due to her outburst. like now she has to relocate schools and a state because she showed her true nature.  and she is so worried that nathan will think she is a monster and she gets all upset and tells him to stay away instead of vice versa. but she fucking saves nathan from mr. jefferson.  and she and nathan decide to run away and finally be happy and away from all the bullshit and JUST BE FUCKING HAPPY FOR ONCE.

[quccnvictoria-blog]

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Final Opinion; THE NATHAN TO MY VIC. TRU LOVE. BEST NATHAN EVER. BIG FUCKING DORK BUT WONDERFUL. WOULD RECOMMEND BUT TOO POSSESSIVE SORRY GET UR OWN NATHAN.

[sufferixg]

❝ 'good for nothing’ is the name they’ll remember me by. ❞

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  && here she thought that might actually have some quiet time to do their work. Doesn’t he have photographs to take out here while she writes her short story. She only agreed to come out to the forest so she can get some inspiration. Nightmares only feed so much into her dark soul. she needs something more than a burning house, a burnt girl, and a zealot mother. If she isn’t careful, it will be Carrie by Stephen King. Might go with the monsters that haunt her dreams instead.

    Heather gazed over at him when he spoke and she rolled her green hues.. Not this again. Some days, he is fine. Others, he is kinda crazy and weird. Sometimes he mumbles about someone named Rachel, but she never asks who Rachel is. Better for him to stay in his own world while she stays in hers. Seems today he is going to be difficult and try to ruin the mood, but she won’t allow that. The girl closed her large notebook and gently patted it against his head. She tapped it against his head at least twice, slowly, making a point; shut up. 

      ❛You’re being depressing again. Besides, I know your name and I’m the only one who matters.❜ she removed her notebook from his head and smiled only a little, a ghost of a smile that she is known for. Just like a ghost, it disappeared without a trace, leaving the viewer questioning if she even smiled at all. Then, she opened her notebook and continued to write. 

[sufferixg]

┇ ┇ O N L Y FRIEND

“You should go.” The last girl I liked this much, I accidentally killed. I’m dangerous and… It wasn’t just because of his schizophrenia (which he shouldn’t have suddenly told her about a few moments ago) and his abusive father. Or even how much everyone hated him and assumed his life was perfect… It was about Mark Jefferson and Rachel Amber. He never even told Rachel about his sickness. Does that mean Heather was closer? She needed to steer clear of him. “I’m a fuck up. Just… Forget about me.”

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   She only gazed down at the floor when he spoke. Go? Please. No one tells her what to do or say; unless it is her father..Yes, a normal person who was shallow would have walked away from Nathan, but Heather isn’t normal. Granted, they are different in totally different ways. He has mental illnesses while she can literally throw people across a room with just thinking it. Both are terrible, so she doesn’t wish for either or. Still, they are more similar than she would admit. They both have problems, but in different areas. If she was a huggie feelie person, she would have hugged him and told him it was okay. But that’s not her, it will never be here (probably because she is scared he will get hurt from her demonic powers). He opened up about himself, and she still remains a closed book. 

        Schizophrenia was one thing but talking about telekinesis and fire starting; that’s totally different. 

        ❛We’re all a little fucked up, Nathan.❜  she spoke over to him with a very faint smile. Her uniquely colored green hues never left him.  ❛ I don’t forget anyone, ever. So stop it.  ❜