I’ve only loved you since we met. Look where we have been carried by time. You’re so far from me, yet in everything I do, I always feel your presence. You’re always going to be in me somewhere. You’re always going to have that portion of me nobody else can substitute. Portions that have given me peace. Every moment the wind touched my skin, I saw you. I kept seeing you in every dream. To be frank, I loved you all the way to my center, and will love you forever. We both attempted to remain our best even when everything was so screwed up. And I’m never going to blame you again for the mess we became. I wouldn’t call you a mistake because you were a lovely chapter, honestly. Our favorite part may not have been the end, but the ride was worth it. I understand that the loves that come after you are not going to be of your kind since you’ve been once in a lifetime. Maybe it was the incorrect timing... or maybe it was supposed to be like this. I’m always going to miss you anyway. I hope you never cease to be ideal for the heart that learns to love yours. I hope you will always know that drowns you so deeply, because no one deserves it more than you did! What love is through us, I will remember forever! I count down the days till I got the most heart breaking news, that I lost who I thought was my Soulmate! Someone I think back on and could see myself having kids with while always being happy. As It come up on 12 Years you’ve been gone(on feb 10th); my heart still hurts and has all those spaces you made me recognized were empty cause you could fill; those places have a guarded side cause I can’t just be with someone who thinks life is a game. Sadly not many have been able to fill that void you could. I miss my best friend, my biggest fan and someone who never saw me as broken when I knew I was. Every day I make myself better because I only wish he’s looks down on me and see I’m doing everything I can to be my true self! He always told me as long as I felt proud of myself that he would always be by my side with out question. I know marrying somebody n getting divorced so close to that loss was the big downfall & backside in personal growth. I will always adore my TravTrey cause you loved me to my core and I strive to make myself better cause I still have you in my heart after all these years. I still hear your chuckle in the back of my head when I trip over my own feet or just say something dumb even if I’m only one around beside you in the air. You always taught me how to be strong but also to be vulnerable when necessary; those are the memories I have of you and cherish them. I honestly wish I could fly to Montana to spend time at your service and more importantly with your family who always accepted me with open arms! When your Emily called me to invite me I was in shock cause I figured they forgot about me. Maybe you were always right! I was always meant to be Mrs. Hudson and your family still feels the same. Crazy where a dozen years can bring us.
