realized we’re like, semi-monoconscious? shrodinger's conscious. we are until we focus on it and then the wave form collapses and we’re hydraconscious. and if we focus on it just a little we hear each other’s voices. my headmates were heckling me while I was typing this btw
but also when interacting internally it feels very dramatic. not in the usual sense of the term, but in like a stage play. it feels like we’re all improv-ing/roleplaying, not genuinely interacting. not that we’re being fake on purpose it’s just literally impossible for us to interact in any other way (even when using external things to interact) . and things that happen in our head tend to be more, like, “exaggerated” than other systems we’ve noticed? like we’re still Us we’re just preforming us a little more out there. we were honestly trying to find a term for this and many have come close (the closest being narravisum, but instead of interacting with headspace as a story it’s each other) but none ever actually fit. we feel really weird abt this honestly and have fakeclaimed ourselves over this
I only heard of the term monoconscious, so after reading about hydraconsciousness, it fits us (thanks for indirectly introducing us to the term lol).
But about the dramatic interactions? That's definitely relatable. There's really no reason for us to play up our interactions as if we're in a shitpost, an anime or some comic, but we do. It's entertaining.
Honestly if we all interacted normally and abided to the rules of both reality and society, we'd never really want to talk to each other. That's how it feels for our system. Not to mention part of our eccentric traits are probably related to neurodiverse traits, such as our cluster b traits or our AuDHD and CPTSD. You really can't stop being dramatic if it's embedded into your behavior or the way you think.
-Elisée (Personative/OCtive /@enberneutral)