How could I ever think that this would be different? No, no matter how happy we seem to be, we broke up and move on. I can't, it broke me on both sides. I want to deactivate and do what I did to you five months ago, because of how I feel. I suck at being a caring human being. I do. I only see myself when I'm heartbroken. You are not certainly laughing your ass off at me but it hurts me too much to keep it. You knew it, you knew it wasn't Taewoon only, you knew that the break up between them would also affect me because I'm in love with you and it sucks because there's no way I can be happy because I clearly know that I was just some stubborn kid affirming to be in love with an older grown up woman but the truth is, you don't fucking know how I feel, and that's why I won't be Taewoon anymore, just like happened with Yukwon. Did you ever care for me at least? I cared for you, I care for you. You slowly became too important but what am I?! A kid? I'm not a kid, you have no fucking idea of what I've been through, nor I do about you but I tried to, I tried too hard it ended up being you. I'm so done. That's why I won't be him.











