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Now the day bleeds Into nighfall And you're not here To get me through it all
-- someone you loved
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Now the day bleeds Into nighfall And you're not here To get me through it all
-- someone you loved
September 12, 2016
I still feels strange. I gathers their things and goes to their own room. The whole day is a giant blur, I felt like they were dreaming. C is coming Thursday! I is beyond excited. But for now, gross Sean lays in I’s bed. He startled I, he was in front of her door. “Oh I was looking for you.” Uh ok. I does astronomy homework while he tells I about other girls he’s trying to fuck, I takes that as a hint that he doesn’t want to do anything together anymore. Time for him to leave, he leans in for a… hug? Nope, but I doesn’t kiss him. “I don’t want to do that.” I hugs him and escorts him out. I laughs so hard at the strange occurrence. I immediately calls D so they can laugh together at his dumbass. I texts him later and said sorry about the awkward kiss situation, I just wants friendship. I sleeps horribly in their own bed. The machines still buzzing.
Monday:
Belle :(((. This is all really, really upsetting. I hope the show does right by this story.
Among the many, many gross reasons David’s incessant proposals are soooo inappropriate and annoying as hell - after one or two times the significance of it is totally lost. At least to me. How special does it continue to be when the question has been asked 500 times? Sigh. I just do not buy David and Tracy as a couple. Oh well.
Vanessa you’re completely CLUELESS. I’m no fan of Tracy, at all, but you can’t force this and it WILL go bad.
So I’ve watched this Robron stuff on Youtube a million times - and basically it’s THE BEST. Flirting, laughter, smooching. Good, cute scene or GREAT MOST ADORABLE SCENE EVER???
A one-year old’s birthday party in the pub. Hmmmmmm....okay. Odd.
“Olivia...”; “Chastity...” hahaha. That was so sassy and hilarious.
But WHY is Belle revolting against Lisa??? I don’t like it, it makes me SOOOOOOOO SAD for Lisa; she just loves her daughter and wants her well and her intentions are PURE.
SO MANY ADORABLE CHILDREN AND BABIES.
I wonder if the show will bring back Kieren ever...recast or not.
That look between Robert and Aaron after Aaron says he was ‘distracted’ was just BRILLIANT and YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSs.
Ross is afraid of clowns. Too cute.
Stripper clown makes the babies cry - hilarious.
ROBERT <3 <3 <3 <3 - and CHAS. I’m looking forward to Robert having some scenes with Chas, and Paddy, and Liv, and others...hope it happens and he’s not just relegated to verbal sparring with Chrissie. Oh - but I guess we’ll get some Rob and Vic scenes which will be GRAND!
Good scene with Lisa, Zak, and Jermaine at the end. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I think I’ve come around about Jermaine. Somewhat.
Tuesday:
AW JAKE and DAVID - I’ve missed them.
Sweet goodbye scene for Aaron; kissing in front of Chas, coupley banter... See you in a couple weeks Aaron (ugh too long. At least Robert will still be around)!
Dan - hahaha....but this is awkward with Ross. And kinda funny. They’re both giant goobers. It feels awkward to say that I’m enjoying this Ross stuff - but it’s a bit of a different side to him then I’m used to so for that I am enjoying it. Not enjoying poor Dan’s cluelessness....but....
hahaha....Titanic - I saw that six times in the theatres when it came out...still the most times I’ve ever gone to see the same movie in theatres. Ha. Maybe I shouldn’t pronounce that so proudly :D
((Lobster, Dan! She’s your Lobster!!)) ;)
It really, REALLY rubs me the wrong way in tv or film when an outsider pressures another character to forgive a parent for past hurts. There is no golden rule that parents should be, or have to be, forgiven for past hurts. Maybe Tracy won’t stay mad at her dad forever, but she doesn’t have to forgive him and let him into her life just because she might have dreamt of having her dad at her wedding; or even if he’s sincerely sorry she’s still under no obligation to just let him into her life. I really, really, really hate scenes and speeches like that one from David. Because he and Eric are not the same as Tracy and whatever the hell his name is. And David has no right to make her feel bad or guilty about still being angry with him. If SHE wants to work towards forgiveness then yes, David, and Vanessa (and anyone else) can offer encouragement and support...but otherwise people should butt the fuck out. I have a lot of very strong feelings about this.
HAAAAAAAAAAAA Charity calling him out. GREAT. But I do not trust this guy, and I do not like him. Not yet. (ah, Frank, that’s his name)
ROBERT. STERN. GREAT!
Look at Ross, trying to be a good guy. Maybe a bit of self-preservation is involved but still. He doesn’t really think of others like this, does he? Aside from his family, that is. And Dan is a good guy. Sigh.
Speech Prep
There’s nothing more satisfying than being so frustrated while trying to work on something and then it actually turns out really good in the end and you’re really proud of it. That was basically my day. I was so frustrated with my speech because it was twice as long as the maximum time but I liked all the cool facts I had in it and I was sad when I had to cut out a bunch of stuff but I finally got the time right and it’s still a pretty good speech if I do say so myself. It’s not quite as memorized as I’d like it to be but I feel pretty confident and I have all morning and part of the afternoon tomorrow before class to practice more.
Anyways, that’s pretty much all I did today. Just worked on my speech. Usually on Mondays I like to do my work for my online classes but I just needed to focus on my speech today, especially since I couldn’t work on it at all yesterday. But I’ll have plenty of time later in the week to work on it and get it all done in plenty of time.
Also I’m pretty peeved about some stuff. I knew it would happen, I’ve known for months, but that doesn’t make it hurt any less.
I was mostly productive today and I'm more hopeful, it wasn't a bad day
September 12, 2016
D over sleeps. Homework wasn't done. Quick departure. A stop at a beautiful diner that plays lots of Amy. The African tree is on the left. D makes it to her dorm just in time to do homework before class. D does her theatre homework. Printer doesn't work so D runs across campus. Run up for prints. Run down for tickets. Shaking and lightheaded. D knows the drill already. Class is four hours but the last half is pretty cool. D bonds with a girl from class over anime. D gets distracted from homework. D wonders what drowning is like. Do you hear music?
September 12, 2016
Kourtney takes fifteen minutes to get out of her house. R really doesn’t want to be the type to complain about giving rides, but damn mann. School. “Karen, you need to calm down” Cool sub in Olsen's that R was only low-key attracted to. Dance fitness really focused on the fitness aspect. R was a bit tired. R talks to HM at rehearsal. Somebody was parked in his usual spot. Oh well. He’s not gonna go H over it. C and R go to Nutrition, but leave at the break. H didn’t put R in the Europe video DM (or Serena). “But whatever I’m not bitter!” Cinnamon rolls at C’s. Phone calls. Yosemite? C takes R home. R’s mother is drunk. Welcome Home Mother.
First time I've cried since I was in the hospital 2 months ago and it's over a fucking TV show