#session05

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DOOOOOOOOOOO?

Also, look, nothing terrible happened yet. ... yay?

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: This is just like that one moment in the series again. When Homura hugged Madoka and everything was spilling out and Madoka didn’t even know what was happening and was all scared and confussed.

Only difference this time is that I can’t get rid of suspicion that this time Madoka knows what is happening. 

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: EVERYTHING IS SO TENSE AND SO CONFUSSING AND SO WEIRD AND SO SCARY AND I DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW I AM SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ANYMORE! I AM LOOSING MY MIND EVERYTIME I WATCH ANOTHER PIECE OF THIS!

Like, how I am supposed to take this? That Sayaka is a witch? Is she a witch that actually made the labirynth? I highly doub that. But she is a witch? Just being in a human form, because labirynth magic? Why? How? Or like... is she like half magical girl and half witch. 

WHAT IS SHE? THIS DOESN’T EXPLAIN ANYTHING! 

She said she is the same person she always was. 

BUT WITCHES DON’T EXIST!

Is she like... pulled from... the... 

what. 

She can’t be a witch, because witches don’t exist, but she can’t be Sayaka because Sayaka is dead or a witch, depending on which timeline we are in. 

So she is just... something. Something that knows stuff, looks like Sayaka, acts like her, more or less, but is more scary and weird and unsettling. 

I don’t really understand anything anymore.

BUT! What I understand is that this shot is very cool and interesting and I love it.

(Also, I was informed it’s not “babe” it’s “bebe”. I am choosing to believe it wasn’t typo, it was just my brain thinking about a cute and shy girl with white hair while typing that every time)

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: She almost feels like an NPC in a game or like if she is the part of the labyrinth too. Just standing there, giving exposition. Looking all bored and not really interested in any of it. Like if it’s completely fine by her or like if it doesn’t really affect her anyway so why should she care. 

Makes me wonder if she really is actually dead and she is just a illusion of the labyrinth, which is now serving as some kind of Homura’s voice of reason. 

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: But you know what? Is the answer is really just as simple as “This is just Sayaka the Witch” then I am weirdly happy about this. Like... this was cool. To see her talk and walk and do things. 

Like... I don’t know. Sure, I know that witches are magical girls. But I always thought they are insane, crazy, bloodthirsty, totally not responsive or anything like that. 

So, if Sayaka was just a witch all along, all this time and now in this scene with Homura, that’s cool. It’s cool to know she can talk and think, and though she is weird and unsettling, it was fun to see her like that. Even if it’s just thanks to some weird shit happening and thanks to them all being trapped in the labyrinth. 

I feel like I am not making any sense... 

Ugh... I don’t know... I am sure Homura doesn’t see it like that at all, and I think would I be in this situation, I would not see it like that either... or maybe I would. 

I don’t know like... even if I am lying to myself, even if it’s wishful thinking, I feel weirdly comforted to think that even if she is a witch, she is not just a mindless killing animal, but something with brains and smarts and capability to just stand around for a bit and have a chat. 

Does that make any sense? 

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: Ok, yea, the way you talk, it sounds like you totally know who the witch is. And it sounds like you totally know it’s going to be hard for Homura. It almost sounds like you are mocking her. Making fun of her.  And that makes me feel really really really bad. 

Also, since you are so keen on sharing all this knowledge, would you also like to say what you are? 

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: Well, I still suspect Witch!Madoka or Madoka the God of Hope, nothing I have seen yet changed that for me yet. 

I am still unsure about the motives though, but nothing other than everything I wrote so far through all the session came to my mind. Although now I am leaning more towards the idea of God Madoka getting lonely and doing this to have company and some kind of a life, even if it’s a fake life. Still better than nothing. 

[jean-and-ali-liveblogs]

Ali: Oh my god, she is thinking about it! 

No, oh god. It’s just, I wanted her to think about it. And now that she thinks about it, I don’t want her to think about it. Because it must be so painful to think about ti as you are hugging her. MAKE UP YOUR MIND, ALI! 

It’s always like that. Every time. I wish for things to happen and for people to know stuff in this world of Madoka, and everytime I get my wish, I wan to take it back. 

Well... that’s thematic.