Some ask replies
@cheshire-cat-talks I am responding to this QUITE late and long overdue, I know. But during my frantic visits to this blog I've reread this message several times and it always warmed me so much. Thank you for letting me know about this, and I honestly hope that the positive change I've (somehow??) inspired is still relevant even after all these months. 🫂
Honestly, I won't tell your anxiety was ever unjustified? Recently I complained to my good friend about my well-done theory getting jumped on Reddit without any solid counter-arguments and she described it as "Reddit confuses consensus for the facts" which is the best way to explain it fdshfdh People in ANY lore-heavy interest might often dislike the take not because it is wrong but because it is seen as the threat to the "routine". ......the problem is, Twitter and Tumblr usually get their opinions FROM Reddit. :')
But the silver lining is, in that exact same situation I've also got support with people saying stuff like "Finally my headcanons feels validated!", "I've never thought about it this way, I like it so much more!" and "Yep, I've been saying this and I thought I was alone". Yeah, the best antidote from stagnation of the takes and interpretations in the fandom is to always question everything and speak what you believe! Fandom will face bad entropy if everything is always static. Meanwhile, if you just openly post your thoughts you will either find people who also thought it and needed validation or you will create the group that thinks the same!
Thank you two whoever you were! February was a bit hellish, but something life-changing (in a good way) happened literally ten days later on February 13th! I needed to overcome this crisis and in a way I still am overcoming it. At least I no longer resent my age as much. Realising that something only just begin "late" in life really deems any age-related expectations worthless, trust me.
@doktorfeely I am also in a largerly unactive period in life, especially online 🤝 It is just work and hospital and caring for disabled mom and work and hospital and work and hospital and work and hospital..... And chronic insomnia that only psychiatrist could treat but million other problems take priority first x)
I was also remembering you and I am glad that you likewise keep me and Soulsborne in mind. There is really no pressure to spend any time and energy and don't ever listen to what FOMO is telling you fdshfhd Right interests, and right PEOPLE, always will just return to you in due time. Internet just made us all collectively forget how in reality everything is terribly slow-paced and spaced in life periods, and it should be this way!
Gave some snippets above already, but letting you know I didn't ignore the ask and appreciate your interest as well whoever you are fsdhfdhs
Ah, right. Reacting at the post about me praying to the Red Moon and "speaking" with the unknown saint/ghost patron and using the trademark "repetition" of the words that a certain dedicated anime fan used to love a lot. I wonder who could you possibly be. 🙄
Yes, it is true that I've found my "new self" in a very large sense. If you've read the replies above thoughtfully you might have noticed that 'Katy' still remained in some sense even when associated headmate was as good as dead and is recovering like the branches growing from the stump of a chopped tree. If you read all the esoteric mysterious posts... for sure, things have changed. My prayer for the vision was answered and after wishing upon the Red Moon not only I saw the dream with a detailed guidance, but also a relevant person appeared exactly that night and not any day during the three years they had had that chance.
I suppose there is no more use in holding the grudges especially now that I am closer to understanding what "divine revelation" driven YOU away from me back then, so if there is any important question you'd like to ask or useful advice you'd like to impair I am lifting my request to not contact me. I'll tell you what I know too, although I suspect that we are just on dramatically different ways now. Despite being disillusioned about you to put it very lightly, I am thankful to you for having triggered this indirectly. But you of all people should understand that nothing can or should stand in the way of knowing what "task" you were given so I am not promising any consistency or god forbid, any mental stability.
And thank you @izunias-meme-hole, same to you too xD Not in the mood for ask chains, but it is sweet that you still remember me! <:3
Sad update for you SPECIFICALLY, I no longer """hate""" Sephiroth fsdhfsdhf Unhinged dash wars with @heraldofcrow will be remembered fondly, but I've gotten proper insight on Sephiroth and Aerith, and how their arcs and characters are tied to the themes of despair vs hope and now I am hooked and in love. and still don't have the platform to play it fsdhfsdhfsd
Aerith growing flowers in the place where nothing lives or grows is my new most favourite thing ever, it is such a beautiful metaphor. And goals. (Crow we need to find a NEW reason to fight all the time fsdfsdf)
