@sgterso : ❛ if you have something to say, spit it out. ❜
❝ i'm leaving. ❞ she hangs her head low, ellie has never known how to say goodbye. she just lingers in the doorway, hoping the other will find the right words to say. other times, she escapes in the middle of the night, unable to face her own choices. maybe she learned that from riley. she'd planned on telling no one but dina, so maria wouldn't know they were sneaking out. but ellie owes this to jyn, she owes her a lot more, but she's not a girl who has anything left to give. ❝ i'm leaving jackson. ❞
her arms cross and she forces herself to look up, meet jyn's eyes. ❝ and before you try to convince me not to go, you can't. i've already heard it all from tommy and maria. i don't care. ❞ she has to do this. after all he'd done for her, everything he'd sacrificed, it can't be for nothing. someone has to avenge him, if only she could have defended him.
she plays with her hands, staring down at her nails, ❝ i don't really uh ... know how to do this. most of my goodbyes have been permanent and, uh, i don't want this one to be so ... ❞ fuck. she should have come here with a plan of what to say. ❝ i ... i'm gonna miss you. ❞ ellie smiles weakly, ❝ and you better not do anything stupid while i'm gone. and you can have all the beer that i stole from the tipsy bison if you ... if you promise to share one with me when i get back ? ❞