The Doctor took note of the way the question was asked. His lips pursed and at this time, there wasn't anyone at this time that he can officially confirm as his partner. Due to this fact, his eyes slowly drifted to the side, revealing a form of regret that oozed out of him.
His last relationship, one that he was glad to be away from. But the scars she left on his heart would always be a reminder of a lesson learned.
You cannot fix everything or everyone. They have to sometimes fix themselves.
" My previous relationship was one that originally had been an agreement between us. As I understood, we were to be polyamorous. " The word, fell from his mouth with disdain. Not because he hated the word, but because he felt that the events that transpired were a mockery of it. " I was not the one to propose this, it was my partner. But I agreed to the terms and the rules she had set into play. I saw a darkness in her that I felt like I could help cure. This was some time before my banishment from Silvermoon for void practice. "
Solexstras took a deep breath, sucking the air into his lungs and released it carefully. " Sex wasn't difficult to approach. We both mingled and became intimate as any couple would. But there was always a disconnection I felt in it. It often felt one-sided and anything I asked for that would bring us closer was rejected. She was like a six-shot pistol with a single bullet. You never know when something was going to go off in your face because of another's actions. It was unstable. Reckless. Because imagination yourself in an open relationship where you don't know who she's seeing but you are expected to trust these strangers that you aren't allowed to see. And to add to it... " He brought a gloved hand to pinch the bridge of his nose, a tension seeming to build in his head from the hypocrisy. "... If she found out I was seeing someone else, then there goes another argument. "
He huffed a breath and ultimately, he brought himself to smile gently. After all, that was the past and time had passed since. She was gone. And she wasn't likely going to come back to visit him. Especially since he was no longer a true citizen of Silvermoon City. "... I am sorry, I'm sure you were hoping for something far delightful and possibly raunchy. I just feel that sharing my story is something important for anyone. I am not condemning those that practice polyamory. I am still open to the idea of it. But I refuse to accept the belief keeping secrets while feeling like you have zero control or genuine love inside of its core. Otherwise, you may as well have just been seeing each other in a hotel or brothel. But that's just my opinion. "
He placed his hand on his chest and nodded knowingly. " Remember. Always make sure your lover is aligned with your beliefs mutually. Never force them into something out of acceptance. Cherish them for who they are and uplift them, even if your passion has a pinch of sadism and submission within it. "
