Today’s movement meditation is on shame and ancestral healing work as a white person. I think over time, as I have become more immersed in movement culture, I have learned to emit shame toward people with privilege. This shapes my relationship to myself, to my family (both chosen and biological), to my ancestors, and to people I interact with on a daily basis. My relationship to my ancestors, in particular, involves a lot of distancing practices— meaning I often have a relationship of disgust toward them and I choose to differentiate myself from them by understanding myself as morally superior. This is especially true of my ancestors I never had the chance to know. What I’m realizing, though, is that if I never grapple with this shame and the coinciding distancing practices, I will always be limiting myself in terms of the fullness I can bring to my movement work. Most likely, I will also direct that shame toward myself—and toward others in my immediate vicinity. The sad thing is that I believe that the intimacy that my body has with shame has a direct connection to the generational toll that white supremacy has had on the specific white people who are my ancestors. In short, shame is a part of my inheritance. So, today’s practice looks like turning and facing my ancestors, asking to see and know their hearts, not wavering in bringing my own heart, bringing questions of redemption, bringing a genuine desire to understand, and asking them for support and guidance as I navigate showing up for racial justice and collective liberation with imperfections, privilege, and an incomplete tool belt. #movementmeditation #shamework #privilege #healingjustice #ancestralhealing