#shane studies

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it’s a cherished part of my shane headcanons that shane thinks all the sex he’s having is normal and regular. he’s not kinky he’s not some kind of dangerous sex pervert he’s just a normal guy having normal sex with his hot boyfriend. and meanwhile ilya’s inwardly cracking up every time shane alludes to this because shane’s reinvented free use, pet play, ruined orgasms, and forced chastity in the last two weeks alone

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Hudson "he's a biter" Williams

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love that we are all entirely in agreement that 1) shane is out there spontaneously inventing new kinks and 2) the first kinks he invents are cnc and free use. like hoo boy [slaps shane’s thigh] this baby can fit so much profound ambivalence around bodily autonomy + confusion about where the other ends and the self begins + unvoiced longing to cede control to an aggressor-savior who in enacting his depraved sexual desires upon your passive body fulfills your deepest most monstrous needs while ensuring you are never forced to acknowledge those needs out loud

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one of my favorite parts of the books is how much shane freaking loooooooooooves penetration. it is so insanely hot to him. both the sensation AND the idea of it. he wants ilya’s dick in his mouth he wants it in his ass if a genie granted him one wish he’d use it on getting ilya’s dick in both his mouth and his ass at the same time. guy who wants to be pinned down and made to take it. all nine inches baby. somewhere in the HR universe right now he’s doing his cooldown on a bike and shivering all over gut clenching up just thinking about ilya moving deep inside of him. that’s hot

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while my personal shane characterization is still taking shape in my head, I think a core part of #myshane is that he’s pretty lonely but doesn’t fully register it as loneliness because he’s just always felt that way. it’s normal to feel like there’s always this invisible barrier between you and other people that you don’t know how to climb over or pass through. it’s partly the maybe on the spectrum thing, it’s partly the child prodigy who was marked and set apart as Different from his peers at a young age, it’s partly the only child of overinvolved parents thing, it’s partly the young gay kid who learned early on to compartmentalize and deflect and lie by omission to himself and others thing. it’s a little bit of all of those things. shane’s not alone—he has teammates, he has his family, etc. but like… he’s lonely. and he just sort of assumes he’ll always be lonely because he can’t change who he is. you can’t just become someone different. and then ilya bulldozes his way into shane’s life and says I Like You Just As You Are (through his actions if not his words lol) and invites him again and again to play. and teaches him how to play. and shane goes oh—like this? like this? and then he’s goofing around with his friend, who knows him in all his prickly lonely awkwardness and still continually seeks out his company and likes him just as he is. and then he’s not lonely anymore.

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this has got to be ilya’s most effortless seduction ever because you can tell shane’s imagination is doing allllll the work for both of them here. ilya’s idly wondering if he can talk the cute uptight virgin into exchanging fumbled handjobs in the nearest bathroom… shane meanwhile is scripting out elaborate scenarios where league rules dictate that on draft night, for one night only, the 2OA’s body is the sole property of the 1OA to use in whatever depraved ways he desires

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this [gestures vaguely at my shane internalized homophobia headcanons] is also in line with my hc that shane had no plans to come out to his parents and if david hadn’t surprised them at the cottage he would’ve kept kicking the can down the road and eventually it would’ve blown up into one of the worst and most painful fights of their relationship

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Who is more jealous Shane or Ilya?

oh this is fun... i think it's gotta be ilya, right? like, shane definitely has his little flashes of jealousy (the "with who?" in vegas) and he clearly does NOT appreciate that ilya will not. stop. talking. about marrying svetlana. but idk in general shane just doesn't seem all that bothered by ilya's promiscuity or torn up inside over the fact that ilya likes sex and has had a lot of it with people who aren't shane. he's happy when ilya reveals in ep 6 that he hasn't slept with anyone else since they last saw each other, but shane clearly wasn't expecting ilya to stay celibate, and i think his delight comes more from the fact that ilya is obviously kind of embarrassed about it because It Means Something. it lays ilya bare emotionally in a way that mr. "we get together, we fuck, it's simple" has strongly resisted being laid bare up to that point. i think on some level shane is aware that sex means something different to ilya than it does to him. for ilya sex and intimacy are two very different things and the only two people he's experienced both with are shane and svetlana (which i think is why shane instinctively feels more threatened by svetlana than anyone else in ilya's life).

ilya, on the other hand... i think ilya gets hotly, ferociously jealous of anyone who gets to touch shane. it makes him act in extremely foolish ways sometimes (see: the club scene...), to the point where i think even ilya is embarrassed by the intensity of his own reactions. the whole tampa bar scene in ep 5 cracks me up like that is a man who indulged himself in THEE most epic crashout in front of his ex and now has to see that ex again (while wearing his dumb little hawaiian shirt!!) and act like he's chill and calm and normal and casual like sooooooo casual it's nbd oh was shane at that club? was shane at that club with his girlfriend? ilya completely missed that he was kind of doing his own chill calm casual thing. or in ep 6... this man KNOWS it's not rational to be jealous of rose landry!! she and shane had mediocre sex on two occasions and it was so mid that shane emerged from that brief relationship Assigned Gay by Rose Landry. idk the club scene was not a great look for ilya but i do kinda appreciate that his basic energy is ughhhhhh i know i'm not being chill right now ughhhhh i know i need to manage myself better and be an adult but also ughhhhhHhhhh i like him so much i'm just having BIG FEELINGS about it!!!!! mm and i do think that, while ilya's jealousy is so deliciously hypocritical, it's rooted again in that shared understanding that sex means something different to shane than it does to him. shane doesn't do casual sex. (most of the "casual sex" he's having with ilya starts with a passionate makeout session and ends with shane earnestly asking about ilya's home life. guy did not get the memo on how the whole fucking your Hated Rival thing was supposed to work.) so if shane is dating someone publicly it's a five-alarm emergency in ilya's head because ilya has SEEN how that sweet earnest dweeb loves and it's with his heart wide open!!!