7. Any worldbuilding you’re particularly proud of?
well idk if it's considered world building exactly but i do like what i did in the tramp stamp fic because it was a mix of mack at worlds, then vancouver which i haven't been to lol so i did a lot of research so i felt kind of proud of what i've accomplished there!
9. How do you find new fic to read?
either tumblr recs/my friends rec fics or i just scroll through the wm tag on ao3 and read summaries until something appeals to me!
hi!! i absolutely LOVE your au. (and I hate brian with a burning passion. cannot wait for shane to leave and heal) do you (or anyone else) know of any fics with similar themes?
Thank you ❤️❤️
I've read a few fics where Ilya steals Shane from a bad boyfriend (though not any others where Shane is in an open relationship) and two immediately came to mind:
That Time Ilya Rozanov Stole His Teammate's Boyfriend by mariku. This is a college AU where Ilya is a basketball player and Shane is a journalism major. I don't usually like AUs where they aren't hockey players but this one is fun! There's also a fic about the same events from Ilya's POV in the works.
Shane Hollander is Dating a Nice Man From Montreal! by trickysnail. A canon divergent AU, so they're still hockey players (yay!), also a lot of fun.
I couldn't remember any others from the top of my head but if anyone has recs please drop them in the replies!
little alex dealing with sensory overload, or big alex regressing due to sensory overload and having no idea how to deal but meredith and derek manage to make it all okay :)
It's been literally a million years since you sent this so I'm so sorry!!! but I finally wrote it! I hope you like it :D also i love the profile pic
fic under the cut
Everything was pissing Alex off today, and he didn't even know why, sure work had been stressful, and he'd been working longer than he probably should have, and he didn't even get to cut anyone up, he was stuck on the ward, dealing with about a million different post-op issues, and Meredith had got April to do a surgery with her not him. It was bullshit.
He was still in work now, because he had to wait for Meredith to finish up, and Derek was doing paperwork in his office so had asked Alex to not hang out.
The label on his shirt scratched the back of his neck, and he'd tried to adjust it but it hadn't made shit better. He opened his locker, hoping to magically find something, but there was nothing at all in there, other than a molding apple. He slammed it shut as another group of interns walked in, they were all loud, shouting, laughing, one jeered, and another walked to the light switch and flicked it on and off, making someone else scream and the others laugh and shout.
"Jesus fuck!" Alex shouted, he slammed his hand into his locker. He felt all their eyes on him, which just made everything worse, and sure it was probably natural to look at him, but he didn't want them to look at him.
He stormed out of the room, his eyes already watering, shoulder slamming into two of the guys in the dark, he heard laughter as the door shut behind him. Now tears fell down his eyes, he knew that he would have to deal with all of them another time, but for now he just fell to the floor, pressing the heels of his hands into his eyes, he could hear the flickering of the fluorescent lights and the constant fucking beeping.
"Alex!"
Alex didn't look up despite hearing his mom's voice, instead he just cried, he knew she was talking to him but words were too much for him right them, so instead he just cried.
He was scooped up as soon as he started to kick at the floor, he wiggled automatically, but his mommy held him tight, and the two of them started to move.
He kept his head tucked into her neck, but she didn't smell good, she smelt like blood and bodies and iodine and not like the good mommy smell. He let out a whine as he heard more voices, he felt the elevator move and he whined again.
"It's okay, we're going to find daddy," Meredith told him quietly, he hand rubbing circles on his back.
"Noooo," Alex whimpered through his cries. "Nononononono."
Derek looked up as the door to his office opened. He had a smile ready when he saw his wife, though she was covered in blood from surgery, but then he realised that she was carrying Alex, and that Alex was crying. He stood up so fast that he knocked a pen pot over, but he didn't care about that. "What's going on?"
"I found him outside his locker room on the floor crying, he's not calmed down," she explained quickly.
"Shi-..." Derek cut himself off and held his hands out towards Meredith, "do you want me to take him?"
Meredith really looked like she didn't want to hand him over at all, she bit her lip, and reluctantly nodded her head, "I just need all the blood off me, I would have changed first but he was crying and couldn't or wouldn't communicate."
"He seemed fine earlier," Derek accepted his son into his arms, who cried but then immediately clung to him, Derek held tight to him, rubbing his back like she had been doing, "I sent him to take a break, I was going to make him nap but it seemed too late for that, I figured you'd be done soon and we could head home."
Meredith sighed, "Yeah, it ran over."
Derek frowned looking at his wife, he knew that look, the look of someone who'd lost a patient, Meredith just gave him a small shake of her head, and he nodded in return, he knew that she'd talk to him about it when she was ready, but she would probably just need some time. Death hit them all hard.
"Did he lost someone too?"
Meredith shook her head, "I think he was just doing post ops," she frowned, "I'm going to get changed," Alex cried loudly and Meredith looked torn.
"I'll take care of him, try to figure out what happened to make him drop hard like this," Alex wiggled in his arms still crying but every so often whining in frustration, mostly when they talked. "Go shower," he told his wife, "you know he hates the smell of iodine."
That was enough to make her nod and leave, Derek felt bad he knew that she wouldn't want to leave him in this way, but also that it probably wasn't helping Alex right then.
Derek went to sit on his couch only for Alex to cry even louder and cling to him. "Okay I guess we're standing then," Derek started to pace his office, rubbing Alex's back. "It's okay baby... can you tell daddy what happened?"
He didn't get an answer, in fact he didn't even get a hint of one, so instead he just paced, he grabbed the remote from his desk and clicked it to turn on the two lamps in his room. Immediately he felt a sharp pain in his shoulder.
"Fu-! shi-," Derek winced, cutting himself off before he finished each of the curses, he expertly slipped Alex's mouth off of him, "No biting, Alexander," he told him firmly. "No."
Alex wiggled again until Derek was forced to put him down. He ran towards the door, Derek quickly slipped between him and the door. "Alexander, no, do not run off, you're staying with daddy." He sighed as Alex threw himself on the ground. He flicked the lights off, what he'd been about to do before he'd been bitten. Alex's cries immediately softened.
Derek crouched beside him realisation dawned on him, "You're overstimulated, huh, baby bear?" His baby let out a small whimper. "I'll take that as a yes, bub," Derek whispered. He took a look at his face and saw how miserable he looked. "Can I pick you up? You don't have to talk," he reassured him, "just shake your head or nod."
Instead Alex tried to pull his shirt off, making noises of frustration as soon as it got stuck on his head.
"You don't often wear this tee," Derek pointed out, helping Alex get the shirt over his head, as soon as it was Alex's hand rubbed his neck hard, Derek firmly took it away. "Did the shirt feel uncomfortable?" Alex gave him a look which clearly screamed 'finally', Derek ran his other hand through Alex's hair. "Sorry, baby, silly daddy, huh? Let's get you sorted out," Alex whined again, "I know," Derek told him though he didn't even slightly know, but he scooped Alex up, who immediately decided to suck on Derek's shirt, which Derek would never admit was adorable because they were really trying to stop Alex from chewing and sucking on random things, especially in the hospital.
Derek let him for now, moving over to the cupboard grabbing out the diaper bag he kept in there, it was nearly empty, he needed to restock it, he guessed it would be coming home with them. Luckily there was a diaper in there, and a sleepsuit which he pulled out, along with a little bag of goldfish and a juice box.
"mama."
"Mama will be back soon," Derek promised him, "she just needs to stop smelling yucky. "
"mama," Alex whined again.
"I know, I know," Derek soothed, helping Alex out of his shoes and the rest of his clothes. He quickly got the diaper on him, Alex started to whine when Derek was getting him into the sleepsuit, but as soon as he was in it Derek burrito wrapped him in a blanket, compression was good for over stimulation.
"Daddy's going to give you some juice and feed you some goldfish," he told him, Alex whined and Derek shook his head, "I know, daddy's so mean, but you need a snack. Do you want to wear daddy's airpods is noise too much?"
Alex nodded his head sadly, "Beep beeps," he said by way of explanation.
"Yeah, lots of beeping in the hospital, isn't there" Derek soothed, grabbing his airpods and sticking them in Alex's ears, he quickly pulled up the 'brown noise' playlist he kept on his phone for Alex, knowing that it was supposed to be helpful for adhd, he wasn't sure if it was or not, but he'd try anything.
Meredith walked in having quickly showered and grabbed Alex's bag from where he'd abandoned it in the locker room. Her mouth was set in a thin line, which softened when she saw her baby in her husbands arms, napping wrapped in a blanket.
Derek sent her a soft sympathetic smile. "What-"
"-Overstimulation," she told him.
"I figured that."
"Well, what you didn't figure," she said softly, reaching out to run her hand through her sleeping baby's hair, "was that it was probably made worse by a group of people acting like idiots in the locker room, shouting and flipping the lights on and off."
Derek sighed and shook his head, "Fuckin' idiots," he whispered. He locked eyes with his wife, "I'm guessing you yelled at them?"
She crossed her arms over her chest, "They were acting like he was being obscene for dropping hard, like he was the issue, one of them said that he should have known he was dropping." Her mouth was pressed back into a thin line.
"Did you already hand their ass to them or can I go down?"
"They're going to be finding it hard to breathe out of their nose," she told him seriously, "I think they got the point."
Derek smiled at her, he wasn't surprised that she'd dealt with it, he made a mental note to send a message to Richard about it all, though he doubted that Webber would punish Meredith for that, not when it could be argued that the residents were deliberately forcing a little to drop, which might not be the true but Derek really didn't care about it, he cared about how they hadn't helped with Alex's overstimulation, had been a cause in it, had ignored the fact that a little who they knew dropping.... If Meredith hadn't been there....
"I'm going to set him up a meltdown kit, Addie told me about what they put in Jackson's," she told him, "and he's wearing the band for a while, that way we'll know if he suddenly drops."
Derek smiled.
"What?"
"It's just nice that I'm not the one sounding overprotective now."
Meredith rolled her eyes, "He's adorable, if he drops without us knowing he could be kidnapped."
"He'd probably just bite them."
Meredith hesitated, then sighed, "Did he bite you again?"
Derek shrugged, looking down at his sleeping baby, Meredith was still stroking his hair, which he knew was helping him even though he was asleep. "It was my fault, I turned the lamps on before I turned the 'big light' off, this was before I realised he was overstimulated," he added quickly, "and I told him no... We'll throw some of his teething toys in that kit you're making."
Meredith nodded her head, making a mental note of it as she stared down at Alex, swaddled like a baby in the blanket which had once been in Derek's trailer.
"Do you want to take him?" Derek offered, only looking a little upset that he had to share their baby, "I'll pack up the things we need and we can take him home, I already fed him a snack."
Meredith took him, he whined in his sleep and she shifted him to get him comfortable, Derek carefully took the airpods from his ears, and Meredith made sure Alex could hear her heart, she knew that helped him. She swayed a little, and kept a tight hold of him, knowing the pressure would help.
hi moss!! we're quite new moots i'm pretty sure but i think you're SO sweet and i love having you on my dash bc i feel like we have the same opinions on stuff and u just seem like such a cutie mwah 💙
