#shellynanigans

[deceptigay]

(tw: suicide)

I have stuff to do because I’m. in charge of some stuff.

but i don’t know if i can

i kinda witnessed someone commit suicide today. they’re in a coma. this has triggered so fucking badly i was shifting between dissociating and just. being there crying nonstop while my chest felt like it was gonna explode

i slept all afternoon thinking it would help, but nope. just woke up, still feel awful. 

everything hurts. 

i’ve been told by my colleagues it’s okay to take a break but i don’t want to burden them with my responsibilities. 

but ugh

i just.

i just don’t know if i fucking can function properly. 

i just need some hugs i guess idk man 

i’m not suicidal yet so that’s. kinda good. but with the elections i doubt that’s gonna last. 

[deceptigay]

me: "im gonna take a nap. im tired as heck"

me, 5 minutes later in bed: has the energy to run a marathon

[deceptigay]

excuse me??

[deceptigay]

well who would’ve fucking guessed, I’m a TRIGGER stan 

[deceptigay]

is my country being led by a fascist asshole giving voice to millions of murderous bigots a good enough reason for me to have a gofundme so i can move out of here with my mom and the cats 

because

like

it’s either that or i’m just gonna end up murdered eventually

[deceptigay]

the ministry of education like “we’ll do everything we can to recover objects from the collection” bitch what

if the government gave a fuck about museums, history and culture this wouldn’t have happened in the first place. it’s your goddamn fault there wasn’t enough money being sent to fund the museum you pieces of shit

[deceptigay]

minor inconvenience: happens and triggers a small depressive episode

me, already holding a large ass cup of the first alcoholic beverage I can find: "unfortunate"

[deceptigay]

me: "im a grown ass adult. i know there's people out there that won't like my otps. that's perfectly fine!"

someone: says they're disgusted by my otp

me: