#shesould

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❝    have    you    got    a    light    ?        and    ,        er    ,        maybe    a    cigarette    ,        too    ?        i    can't    remember    where    ,        but    i    dropped    me    pack    an'    now    i    can't    find    it    or    me    zippo.    ❞                              

[distantsuns]

@shesould​ sent: ❛  what  was  i  supposed  to  do ?  ❜

               ❝ I don’t know--- not cause a fuckin’ SCENE? ❞ He paces up and down, clearly agitated, the cigarette clamped firmly between his fingers as he runs his hands through his hair. The coke isn’t helping, either, with the way he’s shaking and his eyes dart from side to side. ❝ Now they KNOW. They know I’m HERE. They’re comin’ after me. ❞

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❝   Vi, Vivi, Vivivivivivi—  ❞   As Sparky keeps poking @shesould​ on the arm each time xe says her common nickname, giggling, xe bounces on xyr heels, sheer excitement clinging onto glitched tone.   ❝   LOOOOOOOKIEEE!   ❞   When Vivienne finally looks over to Sparky, she will find xem holding up an illustrated paper of them together in simple shapes, holding hands while Vivienne’s other hand is holding onto a microphone and xyrs have a guitar. Symbols of musical notes float above and above them— it adds an extra lovely touch to the drawing!

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   ❝   Am I the Devil ? Or the dark ? Am I a monster ? Or a God ?   ❞                                                                    —   @shesould​​​​

THIS SERIES OF SELF-SEEKING QUESTIONS IS DRAMATIC , just as Vivienne herself is so too   —   it is meant to be said as a joke , yet Sparky can not help but find themself in the false sentient .   (   Since the Beginning , they have been searching for their true self that may not even exist in the end   ;   always , have they been a distorted amalgamation of I am a lover , I am a killer , I am a creator , I am a destroyer , I am Adam , I am God , I am sorry , I am gone , I am , I   —   )    It burns and part of them thinks for a brief moment that it was them who had asked her these tragic questions instead   :   Am I the Devil or the Dark or a Monster or a God or or or   —   The unknown shakily exhales and tries to make eye contact with Vivienne , their sharp gaze piercing into hers as they wonder what is she expecting them to say in response .   (   She is asking them what they see in her , is that it ?   )

“   You are a friend — my friend , and I - I - I love you ,   ”   is all they say to Vivienne in complete softness , even as bearing a pained heart and the most aching existence , holding her hand with a small smile .   [   And they think that is okay to be just a friend , and they think that is enough to be someone’s friend at least .   It has to be   /   I will make sure it is .  ]

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               ❝ Look, mate. With the kind of day that I’ve had, I hope you’ve brought me hookers, cocaine, or BOTH, ‘cause I fuckin’ need that right now. ❞