#shipdecki

[roseguided-arch]

@shipdecki ASKED, “𝒊 𝒉𝒂𝒅 𝒊𝒕 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒄𝒐𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒍. 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏’𝒕 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕.”

𝐄𝐃𝐄𝐍 & 𝐋𝐎𝐓𝐓𝐈𝐄 𝐍𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐀𝐃 𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐍 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐎𝐖𝐍. they thought about it—adoption or other methods but it never seemed the right time. or that’s how eden felt. then, came the creation , organizing , & running of the business that seemed like a baby of its own. so much to do , people to coordinate. eden knew , through secret digging of her own , that shauna had a daughter but never did she think she would have the chance to ever meet her. because of what happened in the wilderness , their shared grief over the baby lost , eden felt it wasn’t entirely wrong to think of callie as an extended sort of family. to consider herself her aunt even if the title was never officially given—what happened out there has bonded the previous yellowjackets for life in more ways than one ! ; arms cross over her chest , keys jingling in her hand as furrowed brows draw together. expression is somewhat disappointed, but mostly concerned. what the hell was callie thinking , did shauna knows were she was ? ❛ sure as hell didn’t look like it to me , kid ! ❜ exclaims the older woman, tone sounding irritating for a split second. a step is taken closer , hands resisting their urge to reach out & comfort callie for having raised her voice. ❛ callie , listen. i- . . . ❜ a sigh falls & for a moment eden feels a heaviness to her shoulders. ❛ you can’t do stuff like that , okay ? it’s dangerous. i’m just worried for you, is all. ❜

[wiskayoks]

@shipdecki has developed such a distinct gait over the years. It leaves Shauna wondering if she does it on purpose or subconsciously: overtly covert, surreptitiously blatant steps. An oxymoron akin to their relationship. She still recalls the pitter patter of her tiny toddler feet, running towards the door whenever Jeff returned from work. A little girl she'd dress up in bows and matching overalls, one she dutifully cared for despite the deep disconnect she felt to this day. Did all mothers feel that way about their children and pretend otherwise? “I thought you were going to spend the night at Ilana’s,” she comments without lifting her eyes from the chuck steak she’s tenderizing. “Did something happen?”

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[exi1ed-archived]

@shipdecki said: ❛ you're managing this so much better than i ever could. ❜

she would have argued, but this wasn't shauna or one of the others. this was callie. this was a teenager. she may have always known she didn't need kids of her own, but jackie was aware enough to know unburdening herself on one wasn't exactly proper adult-like etiquette. so, instead, jackie let out a little chuckle, pulling the blanket around her shoulders a tiny bit tighter.

"i've had over twenty-five years worth of this kind of shit," she noted, looking over at callie then with a furrowed brow. "are you okay? really?" surrounded by an ambulance and police cars and crying adults, no end to the madness of the evening in sight... well, jackie knew a little something about that scenario, too. "do you need anything?"

[cultidol-archive]

THE FURTHER, it was dark, dangerous, and twisted place. cold and haunted, infested with evil spirits and parasites. the belief that you had simply lost your sanity at a young age : [ it was all in your head, lottie. none of it's real. ] it was as real as the ground she stepped on, as real as the girl who stood before her, as real as herself. others just saw with false eyes; could you blame them? mastery of sleep walking, understanding the devil realm : [ it was her burden to bear. ]

" you have a gift. " gently clasping the girls hands between hers, " a powerful one, at that. " it was a sense of relief, to have someone understand this unfortunate, INSIDIOUS life. there's a lingering thought pestering her brain : [ it's shauna's little girl. ] did you have it in you to place her in harms way? no one protected you from this life. was it now your mission to deter the girl from this path? to protect her the way no one protected you? " how do you [ @shipdecki ] sleep at night? "

[roseguided-arch]

@shipdecki ASKED, “𝒎𝒊𝒈𝒉𝒕 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒔.”

𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐔𝐍𝐀 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋𝐒 𝐀 𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐍𝐗𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐘 , 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄. callie was never suppose to get mixed up in her shit , she was never suppose to know anything about what happened in the forest. but, things snowballed. things happened that made the situation worse & now shauna feels as if she’s failed in protecting her daughter. ( her entire life she’s feared something would happen to callie. that something , someone , would kill her & take her away like what happened with her first boy. it’s something engrained in her & something that won’t ever go away—from the moment callie took her first breath shauna worried. now, it might be the lies that actually make it happen. ) ; ❛ callie , honey , ❜ comes out in a sigh, hand coming to touch the lines forming between her eyebrows. ❛ i am so sorry this is happening. that you’ve gotten mixed up in this because of my- . . my shit. it’s not fair. ❜ to put this worry & burden on her daughter was something shauna actively tried to prevent , but things slipped through her fingers too fast to catch them ! taking a step forward , palms place themselves on the girls arms to give a , hopefully , reassuring squeeze. eyes looking into the mirror reflecting back at her with a slight smile: ❛ things will work out , okay, sweetheart ? i’ll protect you. i’m your mother. ❜ & i won’t let anything happen to you even if means doing something i’d rather not. that’s also engrained.

[huntalie]

CALLIE @shipdecki : it was miserable, thanks.

"uh." so that's what having a teenager would feel like. good thing she never bothered going down that particular route, right? not that the girl is a nuisance, but callie sure has an attitude, all raw & bloody like her mother's. difficult not to see shauna's skeleton under all that pretty youthful skin & healthy pink full of baby fat cheeks -- although, truthfully, you gotta see beyond it. by you, we mean nat. because young shauna would mean young nat, and we all know where that one goes, right? change the tape, baby, that one's rotten. "figure. didn't like school either. well. let me make your day better, 'k? we can go…" don't say drink, nat, don't say drink. "i dunno, shopping? is that what you lot do?" you meaning teen girls meaning pretty popular girls meaning who she never got to be meaning who she never wanted to be & now longs for so badly. who knew she'd be desperate to bond with the probably overly popular pretty thing, the one that would have found a way or two to look down at her had they grown up together in whatever little microcosm of an highschool she's currently studying in while mom stays at home & dad pretends to be working (even though the little bell above the door never clings). shauna really got herself the perfect white-picket-fence tragedy of a tv-on-all-day-long life, alright.

[ladyintree]

[ ♡ ] ❝  Do you remember me? ❞ It comes out in such an awkward way that it barely sounds like Taissa at all, and she hears it as soon as it comes, her head eyes threatening to roll, but she pushes past it. ❝  It's been . . . well, a long, long time. ❞ She can't remember how long exactly; @shipdecki was hardly forming sentences back then, and it was one of the last times Taissa had seen Shauna before everything fizzled out and they, intentionally or not, went their separate ways. No matter how long it had been since they saw each other though, it always seemed like things fell right back in place between them, as if they were still in the cabin's attic, spilling secrets they weren't prepared to tell anyone else. She wonders if Shauna ever told stories about her to her family -- she wouldn't blame her if she didn't, her own family hardly knowing those she spent her time with back then for everyone's benefit and security, but she can't help but wonder anyway.

❝  Taissa, ❞ she clarifies, offering a small smile, trying not to get too distracted by the obvious resemblance of Callie to Taissa's best friend, her mother who had managed to raise such a beautiful daughter, despite the horrors Taissa witnessed her go through so many years ago ( she held her hand through it then, she almost regrets not being there for her as Callie grew up, too. ) ❝ Sh–– your mother and I, we're . . . ❞ It almost feels wrong to call her her ' best friend ' out loud, not with all the distance and the years between, but it's still true, she'll never have another friend like her. ❝  --- We're old friends. ❞

[wiskayoks]

He had known @shipdecki since the day she was born. He remembered getting the call from Jeff while he was at work: Shauna was in labor and they were on their way to the hospital. He had been able to make it to the hospital just in time to meet the newborn. But, knowing a kid for over 16 years didn't mean he was any good at talking to them. What did kids talk about these days, anyway? Back then, he would have loved to talk about Pearl Jam or Carmen Electra...Ooooh, Carmen, in that red bathing suit that hugged her in all the right places... He doubted Callie had interest in talking about either of those things. “How's school?” he asked her casually. “You, huh, you getting good grades? You sweet on anyone?”