Your doctor loves you, you know?
A shirabu x reader angst inspired from @ohkiyo's [ Sleeping Pills ]
I love your stories @ohkiyo!💖
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He had enough. He just couldn't bare it much longer.
Thus, he forcibly shoves the pill into your mouth. Your weak body couldn't do anything.
"I'm sorry..., I just had to" the emphatic tone of his voice made its way to your ears.
Your vision slowly blurs as you look deep into his sorrowful expression.
It was unclear for you to see, A tear runs across his face.
Your body had given in to the effect of the drug that shirabu had given you. You were fast asleep.
Finally, he felt a bit reassured and a sense of relief.
You're almost about a week staying in the same hospital as shirabu works.
Even if you weren't in favor of it, Shirabu had to be your doctor.
Not being able to sleep properly or at all, being tired in the morning, not being able to focus, and depression. After an assessment with him, he diagnosed you with insomnia.
He felt sad and pity for you. It was shocking news for the copper-haired doctor.
As far as he remembers, You were happy, you were laughing, you were having fun... weren't you?.
Jokes on him, that was 7 years ago.
Back in high school; When you didn't have to care so much and when you thought all was well. You were so full of energy, you'd laugh everything off. A smile is always displayed on your face. The 'you' that Shirabu had always loved and admired.
But now, you, yourself don't even know who you are.
As your parents would always remind you that you're just a 'disappointment'.
That whatever you do, your siblings will always be better. That no matter how hard you work on something, there'll always be comparing instead of praises.
Why did you choose to work so hard to get your parents' approval? When you could've just focused on yourself and done what you love?
You're a fool for letting your mind rule over your heart. You chose to lock yourself into the cage and not the freedom you could fly into. All because of your pride and for the sake of your public face.
You've forgotten about yourself. True, you get praise for your efforts now, but is it worth the pain you went through? Such big efforts for such little praise. You won but at what cost?
You'd wish you can turn back the time and be happy again.
Bring back the joyful times. Smile genuinely again.
Little do you know, your doctor wished the same.
"Y/N please, take your medication."
you're waiting for him to leave the room but instead, he was patiently waiting, for you to take your medicine.
You didn't like the medicine given to you. It tasted bland and disgusting. It makes you sick. You just can't stand it. And so, you hid or throw away every pill given to you.
But Dr. Shirabu eventually found out.
"I know what you have been doing Y/N, you aren't getting better. And you know you won't if this goes on."
His straightforward statement runs through you like a cold breeze. His "can't be defied" death glare just makes it worst.
You can't even look him in the eye after he found out what you did.
"Oh well... sorry..." you said weakly as you stare deeply at the untouched pill, not having much care for it.
"Alright, go on. Take your medicine." he sighs and crosses his arms waiting for you to do so.
"I don't want to," you said firmly
"You need to and you have to. You know you need to, right?" he confronts you.
"...so what if I don't get better?" in a cold tone you spoke.
Hearing this, He felt a slight pain run through him. His chest felt heavy. And, he, was in a slight panic.
He couldn't get a hold of himself. As soon as he knew, his body was already ahead of his mind.
Now, on his knees, his hands gripping the pipe borders, he sobs on the edge of the bed where you lay unconscious.
he didn't want things to be like this. he's aware that what he did was wrong, but he just can't help it.
Because he loves you so much.
"I'm sorry... I just don't want to lose you," he said in between his soft sobs, his tears running across his warm cheeks.
"Even though, I know I don't have the right to do- to say so... I just want you here with me. Because I- I love you," he confesses, finally realizing his feelings for you.
Seeing you in pain hurts him, he doesn't want you to be sad, and he doesn't want to see you suffering.
Because for the past 7 years he had feelings for you. He has loved you even before he knew it. That's why please don't leave him. He'll do everything he can to help you, to keep you.
"Please don't leave me so soon." he wished you knew his feelings for you. " I love you".
As he calmed down. He sits down on a chair near your bed and strokes your hair gently. Trying to keep you in peaceful slumber.
A few minutes pass, **beep** his pager rings. Letting him know that he is being summoned to help. Standing up, he let out a sigh before leaning down to kiss your forehead followed by a whisper, "Recover quickly, my love".
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