Jun 22, 2025
the cortisol way up this morning
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the cortisol way up this morning
WOw I am not much of a romantic at all.
I got bad honour :(
Worried I'm getting trapped.
Am I depressed again or just tired? Am I depressed BECAUSE I'm tired? I'm a month in to my new job so I guess I'm maybe around equilibrium and I am struggling so hard to do the things that *need* to be done and really can't work up the desire to do things I like.
I know it's hard to have a full time job and take care of the house and errands and food and hygiene etc etc. I know! But I'm not bereft of time right now, just the ability to actually DO things. You'd think I could do some knitting while I watch dumb videos (it's probably telling that I can't concentrate enough to watch an entire 20 minute video in one go right now).
I think maybe I'm worried about how much worse it's going to get as the sun disappears sooner and sooner and I'll have to drag my cosy ass out of bed in full dark when it's cold.
no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
do I like msi?
fuck fuck
fuck no fuck nooo
URG WAIT IFORGOT AB MY NICO FIC
This is sooooooo fucke d upp