#shots suck

[belovedmuerto]

it’s no longer work i dread on sunday nights (although it’s still a lil bit that), it’s this stupid shot i hafta give myself every week. because it made me miserable for a month with side effects and still isn’t a fuckin walk in the park lemme tell ya.

[hellomynameisthehugfairy]

I was talking with my cousins and we got to the topic of shots and the thing is the shot itself isn’t scary it’s the WIPE. Oh god the wipe it just gives me anxiety I HATE HATE HATE HATE the wipe.

[wishing-and-waiting-to-be-mommy]

[shadowstar-2]

Are we sure giving up isn't an option?

[atlantisofthesea]

i hate being a senior in hs so far. why tf did i just have to get two meningitis shots? it ain’t necessary. at least i had disney music to comfort me

[exasperated-diabetic]

Confessions of an exasperated diabetic

I’ve been a type 1 diabetic since I was 7 years old. Did injections for 7 years, then got an insulin pump, which I’ve been on for the past 20 years. But lipohypertrophy, increased frequency of failed sites, pain, skin reactions to the site adhesive, and growing anxiety when it came time to put new sites in pushed me to the edge and I decided I needed a break, just a few months to heal. Or maybe I could maintain control with injections alone and just stick with that.

And then the first injection I tried to give, I couldn’t get the plunger to depress. I took the needle out and stuck myself five times trying to get the stupid insulin to go in, thinking there was some kind of resistance. But it kept happening, in all different locations. Finally I just had my roommate try, and she had no problem depressing the plunger. I tried a few more times with the same thing happening. By then I was reasonably upset. Switching to injections was supposed to give me a *break* from my torment, not increase it.

So I guess I have some kind of mental block when it comes to giving myself a shot. Perfect. And to make matters worse, all this then triggered a ptsd episode, which for me includes severe nausea that lasts for days. One way to cut down on injections is to be unable to eat anything. Except it does not help keep the BGs down and the Lantus doesn’t seem to be working reliably.

I would go back to the pump, except I do still need the break for some old sites to heal, and now my anxiety is so ramped up that I don’t think I’d be able to insert that needle into me either.

So this blog is maybe an outlet as I try to survive each day in the hopes that eventually things will get better. And maybe it’s an attempt to bring meaning to all this, as I’m sure there are many other diabetics out there struggling with this hard, relentless condition. But no matter how hard it gets, how low we’re brought, the important thing is to always keep fighting. So here we go.

[wishing-and-waiting-to-be-mommy]

So last month when I did my menopur injections, it would take me like 10mins to convince myself to do it. Well this time I just haven’t been able too. So luckily my husband is doing them daily for me. You have to do them on the belly area. Well I guess he does them harder than I did. Because I have a couple bruises. But they don’t hurt?🤷🏻‍♀️I don’t know maybe it’s just a coincidence that I’ve got bruises this time. Today was day 3 of injections. Last month I had to do 9 days. Will see how this cycle plays out.

I’m also trying this cycle with about 7 different herbal vitamins that I read “could” help fertility issues. We shall see. Its going to suck if it’s not our month. Since will probably be finding out by thanksgiving...

[thetempest]