Destiel constructive thoughts
I've been thinking about supernatural a lot and I mean a LOT. I rewatched this entire season, and the episode and the scene and took in the plot. And yes they should have done this YEARS ago. They should have done it all this time cuz like a quarter of the spn plot most of the time is their relationship and relationship drama.
In fact I think they should have made it into a relationship they would have if Cas had a female vessel. But they didn't and here we are. Maybe someone changed their mind last minute, they wanted to get people to stop calling it queerbaiting, they thought "there's nothing left to lose". Idk.
But the scene itself, within the context of their personalities, track record and the story, makes sense. Dean who has never stopped pushing all his feelings deep deep deep deeeeeep down and can't even admit it to himself, Cas who would probably never bring it up unless it would help them survive because he's scared of being pushed away again or simply thinks it's unimportant until now. There's been plenty of last moments for him to confess but he never did it. Maybe he never realized the nature of his love. But now. The last last last last moment. Saying his true feelings out loud will save Dean's life even if it takes his. He doesn't wanna put Dean on the spot and doesn't expect him to love him back. He's just glad he doesn't have to hide it for a second. Dean on the other hand probably never properly processed his feelings for Cas. He never expected this. He wants to say it back but physically just can't react. Cas is going to die in seconds from now. He's still processing what Cas just said. All this stuff he's never spoken out loud let alone to Cas. He wants more time. He doesn't want Cas to leave. All he can utter is "please don't" while holding back tears when Cas pushes him aside to get absorbed by the empty. Taking Death with him. Dean, for the first time in a while, sobs. He doesn't answer his brother's calls. He's defeated.
Like yes I think he should have showed the expressions of holding it back more in the scene and in my opinion he should have expressed that he reciprocated the feelings. It being in the script would be great too. Or just seeing Dean open his mouth to say something but nothing leaving his mouth. Something like that would in my opinion fix this scene. Also more built up to the confession in this episode and the last other 2. Like other 1 on 1 scenes for people who didn't watch all the other 14 seasons of built up and queerbait.
I still think they should have done this a while ago and Dean's face looked even more bland than ever and I know it's probably him being speechless and pushing it all down but dude forreal? You could have stuck a bit of character development in there the other years you've had this character with these flaws. This could have been a moment for him in itself. But yeah. It is what it is and I'm still in my supernatural phase whether I like it or not. My brain has connected seeing these characters to hyperfixating on the show a long time ago and I just have to wait until it's over and I can go to the next thing again. And hope I'll never have to think about this show in this extent ever again. Until in a few years I remember this as a comfort show and go down the rabbit hole again.
