Why do I miss self harming?
There are a number of reasons to miss cutting yourself, including:
Because it is an addiction and a coping strategy.
It's what you are used to, you've probably used the same method to calm down for a number of years.
It creates a rush of endorphins.
Physical pain can be said to distract you more than anything else, nobody can deny that a stubbed toe will grab your attention more than listening to music (a healthy alternative coping strategy.)
Like many addictions, you begin to become tolerant to it. A cocaine user begins needing more and more cocaine to get high, a self harmer begins needing to cut deeper or more in order to get the same feeling.
However, it's really great that you've managed to stop self harming. Please try to continue to resist the urge to, and even if nobody else in your life is, I'm proud of you for taking this step. You got this xxx