anyone who's been following me since the 1d days, knows that zayn and liam always have been my faves.
i used to make gifsets and edit pictures, even created a sideblog for the wwa tour, that me and my friends updated every day. i considered myself a very active part of the fandom.
2013 was also when i was diagnosed with clinical depression. so even if i was older than them, these guys, their dynamic and music helped me through a really hard time. they definitely were an escape, even if i can admit today, that it wasn't always the healthiest kind. that doesn't change the fact, that they brought me so much joy!!
i've never been as affected by a celebs death, than by liam's. i keep catching myself thinking about him. about the teenager with big dreams and a bright smile, and the man swallowed by his own demons. emotions are complex, and i think it's gonna take a while to fully digest this new reality. rest in peace.
to all my 1d friends. toni and cami and ayesha and yeshi and sophie and kris, and all the other amazing people that i talked to over the years: i'm thinking of you. 🖤