I'm really bad with my Bipolar's Depression and Fibromyalgia. I have Cyclothymia a form of Bipolar. If I talk about myself lately I've said I'm okay. And If I'm honest to myself I've been far from okay.😔 for some week's/month's now. Actually I've been lying to myself for month's. I've forced myself to get up and go to work. I've forced myself to put one foot before the other. But I don't feel like I'm treading on water anymore. I currently hate my life. Hand on heart, I can honestly say. I right now (and for the past week's/month's ) I genuinely hate myself/My life. Don't get me wrong I DON'T feel suicidal. I just hate my existence. And everything that could possibly be described as my life. I want to be absorbed. I've finally admitted to myself that I'm not coping with life at all and I need help. Tomorrow I will see a GP in my practice, seen as my GP (of 17 years) is no longer available for some unknown reason. #InvisableIllness #Fibromyalgia #Cyclothymia-Bipolar #EndStigma #TiredOfBeingTired #DisAbilities #SickOfFeelingLost #TryingToStayStrong (at Bristol, United Kingdom)