#sidebysideinsilence

[foxgloveprincess]

I'll give this Glammr thing a shot...

Can I have a match? I love dark humor, a good sunset, and good food. Prefer CE characters, but I'd never kick Bucky out of bed. I hate having to make a million decisions all the time and would love some cuddles (and more) from a beefcake.

Thanks babe!

Name: Ransom

Species: Vampire 🩸

You clutch the sandwich in your hands. The most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen. Crafted with care by the geniuses in the kitchen at your favorite late night cafe.

Starving, you take your first bite. Teeth cutting through layers of bread and sauce and fillings. You moan around the mouthful, chewing happily.

“Someone’s enjoying their meal,” a voice says from above you. “I know the feeling.”

You glance up. A pale, perfectly coiffed man standing beside your table. His sweater well-worn and his eyes sparkling in intrigue.

You place your sandwich down on the plate and wipe your hands and mouth.

His cold fingers tilt your chin up, thumb swiping along the corner of your lip. He smirks and offers the digit out, waiting for your lips to wrap around it.

You don’t know why you do. The compulsion that overtakes you—from his innate vampiric powers or some yearning in your gut. But you do. Just to see his pleased expression.

He introduces himself and asks to sit with you. To watch you enjoy your meal. You accept, and gesture to the chair across from you.

He’s poised as he sits down, crossing his arms on the table and leaning toward you. He regales you with his story. The life and afterlife he’s led. All while watching you take much more modest bites of your sandwich.

Your phone pings with a notification from Glammr, just as his does. Almost one sound from both of your devices.

Curious, you both pull out your phones and look to the screen. You’ve got a match!

[withoutaplease]

I absolutely do NOT need all this Dacre content, but I'm grateful for it any anyway.

Listen, friend, I hear ya.  I was just an average-amount fan of Stranger Things expecting to watch a new season, think about it for a week, and then forget again until next time.  At no point during ST2 was I attracted to Billy.  I did not find him likable or interesting other than as a new villain for my heroes.  I therefore took no particular interest in Dacre, either.  No offense intended, my gaze was just elsewhere.

Now I don’t know if it was the new wig, or the tan, or the fact that the calibre of his acting was off the fucking charts, but I couldn’t take my eyes off Billy in ST3.  Then I clicked on one (1) interview and found out Dacre is not only smoking hot and talented but also sweet, bashful, and Australian.  I’m weak, okay?

So anyway, thank you for the ask because I’ve been kinda just screaming my suffering out into the Tumblr void in hopes that someone else will hear me.  Now we can suffer together.

[asupernaturaltreasury]

Is there an AO3 collection for the works? Just wondering as I plan to cross-post there and want to tag appropriately. Thanks!

I don’t know that an account was set up for the Treasury, but that’s a good idea! @littlegreenplasticsoldier and @deandoesthingstome and I will have to figure that out together, I shall put it on the “to-do” list. It looks like to me that you can retroactively add something to a collection, so certainly don’t let us hold you up when it comes to getting it posted. 😁

Thank you, this is a great thought!

[nyxocity]

Hey. Because I'm slacking off, I'm gonna ask you more about your writing. Maybe you've answered this before, but I'm wondering what it was specifically about George Michael's music that made you choose it for HomeworkVerse? FYI I can't hear GM now without thinking of it.

Hello again! :D I love answering this question because...

I’d love to say that I had it all planned. But George Michael had nothing to do with the story until Chapter 4. Listen Without Prejudice is a long beloved album of mine, which incidentally entered my life when my husband at the time introduced me to it in like 2000. I liked GM a lot, but you know, he was mostly silly pop so when my husband at the time tried to convince me he was super deep I was like yeah, right. Then he played the album for me and I fell in love. There’s so much emotion in that album. So when I needed Jensen to have a reason (excuse) to have Jared stay a while, that’s what came to me: sort of the same situation where Jensen is trying to convince Jared that George Michael is awesome. Music is a beautiful thing to share and can bring people closer together, and I really thought it worked.The crazy part is that after I wrote that into the story, I decided that the prom scene (which at that time I had planned and partially written) would have to contain a GM song, because this had now become their theme. I had the lyrics for “Kissing a Fool” written into the scene as a placeholder, and I was disappointed, because I couldn’t find a GM song that seemed more RIGHT.

Obviously while writing the story I was listening to a lot of GM, and one night I got tired of Listen Without Prejudice and a few songs from Faith on repeat. While digging through my GM folder, I came across “One More Try” in a folder all by itself and was like, I forgot all about this song! “One More Try” was huge when I was 16, and I remembered how beautiful and SAD it was. So I pulled it into my program and hit play, and I just remember sitting there listening to it as I wrote, with this epic FEELING building inside me, and then I just stopped writing all together and listened, and started crying. Because this was THEIR SONG. It was like having an epiphany, it hit me so hard. It was PERFECT. Could not imagine another song that could be more perfect, GM or otherwise.

I do a lot of planning, but some of what I write happens very organically and on the fly. My brain will just make connections to things, like inserting Listen Without Prejudice just seemed right for that moment. And that led to rediscovering “One More Try”. I know that I do things very intuitively, so I know sometimes my brain is making connections I’m not aware of at the time. Almost as if it’s setting things up and waiting for me to catch on and go AHA! So I’m pretty sure my subconscious had it all planned and just neglected to inform me :D

That said I cannot listen to GM to this day without thinking about those boys, and “One More Try” still makes me cry every time. 

[idreamofhazel]

Ohhh lyrics! "I was a lover, before this war/ held up in a luxury suite, behind a barricaded door" I feel like this is a Sam one, but don't feel obligated.

Yep. I held onto these. Lyrics are golden inspiration!

Sam was hunting a demon alone. The way he wanted to hunt, Dean would never allow. So he left. And with his training, he made sure he couldn’t be tracked until he wanted to be. 

The demon was held by a devil’s trap in a shed behind the house of the man it was possessing. The home had no neighbors in sight, affording Sam the silence he needed. 

His hand was raised towards the demon, his questions hadn’t been answered, and blood was just beginning to drip from his nose when the shed door flew open. 

Sam broke his concentration and pulled a gun out towards the woman who had entered the shed. 

“Stop!” Sam shouted. “Who are you?”

The woman threw her hands up half-heartedly, smirking as she tip-toed around the devil’s trap. 

“I said stop!” Sam shouted again. 

“Alright. You got me,” she said, stopping in her tracks. “But it doesn’t look like you have this guy yet. Want some help?”

Sam kept his gun raised and his eyes on the woman. “Answer my questions. Who are you and how did you find me?”

The woman sighed. “The name’s Y/N, and I’ve been tracking you down for some time now. The rumors about Sam Winchester’s...less than conventional abilities have gotten around, and I wanted to see if they were true for myself.”

“Are you a demon?”

Y/N laughed, stepping into the devil’s trap and then back out again. “Human, full-blooded. But you... could you do that?”

Sam’s face scrunched up in a snarl. “What do you want?”

“To join you, Sam. To help you. We have something in common. These hunters, they don’t get us. They don’t even tolerate us. Given the chance, they’d just as soon shoot us with a silver bullet as they would a werewolf. So we have to go our own way. We have to do what it takes to win this war because they sure as hell won’t.”

“You have powers?” Sam asked, his gun still pointed at her. 

Y/N stuck out her own hand towards the demon and twisted it like she quickly turned a doorknob. The demon’s neck bent at an odd angle and snapped. Orange light flickered and went out across the man’s skin.

Sam lowered his gun. “I wasn’t done interrogating him yet.”

Y/N strolled towards the door, looking back at him. “We’ll catch another one.”

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[seenashwrite]

Dear Nash - I need an answer. To quote my most hated commercial... What's a computer?

[nyxocity]

Random ask - so I just read your Quantum Leap fic and I'm curious because he's like our Greek Chorus in many of your works... do you have fun writing Chad? You seem like you do. What's difficult when including him?

CHAD. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MY CHAD LOVE.

It began with Homework verse. Back in the day there was this overall tendency for people to write Chad as an asshole AND an idiot, which makes one wonder why Jared would be friends with him. When I wrote my first RPS I decided he could be an asshole, but he would also be a SMART asshole in his very own unique way. Writing Chad in Homework verse and the story you’ve mentioned here are definitely my favorite instances of writing him. He’s definitely the easiest of all RPS characters for me to write, in any story, and yes, I have a BLAST writing him. He’s always fun to write, every single line that comes out of his mouth or mind.

Whenever I’m at a loss in a J2 story, whenever things don’t feel quite right, I usually just need to apply MOAR CHAD. It’s true, he acts as catalyst and Greek Chorus and I LOVE writing him. Chad often also serves as comedic relief in addition to the aforementioned roles--and sometimes all of them at the same time :D I’m a very strongly intuitive person, which means piecing things together through odd ways sometimes, and Chad is like me in that, but to an extreme.

The only difficulty I’d say I’ve ever had writing him was in Homework verse, where I tried to find/think of crazy stories for him to use to compare to Jensen and Jared to make his strangely wise points. I had to do some research to find stories that could be strangely compared in some cases (The Princess Diaries), and some of them I pulled from my memory and then re-researched (Scrooge, the Nikki Sixx story). But even THAT was still fun. I suppose the most difficult thing is making him a different person in every story, while still having similar attributes.

I BECAME ONE WITH THE CHADNESS A LONG TIME AGO xD

[nyxocity]

I want commentary on so much of your writing. Loved your response to the beautiful disaster scene. How did you choose the songs for that fic?

Thank you for asking. You’re always welcome to ask more! :D

This story was originally inspired by my playing a shit ton of the original Rock Band on XBox, just fyi. Music is a huge part of my life, and one of the joys of writing Beautiful Disaster was getting to use so many songs to fit the emotional moods. Sometimes I’d think about the scene and look through my music until I found something that resonated, and other times it smacked me in the face and was like, here, you’re using this. For example, I was listening to a 90′s alt station pretty heavily while writing this story, not for any particular reason other than that I was enjoying it, and after a while, as I was writing, the lyrics of certain songs began to sink in as perfect for certain scenes.

Okay so let’s talk about the songs individually:

Cold Contagious; Cold Contagious, lyrics as written and performed by BushI needed a song to set the stage/mood of the relationship between Justin and Jensen and this stood out to me as a good emotional opener. This one didn’t come to me automatically though and took a little time.

Don’t Believe You; The Ubiquitous Mr. Lovegrove, lyrics as written and performed by Dead Can DanceI’ve been a fan of this song since way back in my goth club days. I just love the lyrics, the middle eastern feel of the music. There’s a sense of a long relationship in this song, one that has come to a bitter place. Again, setting the mood for the Justin/Jensen relationship.God of Wine; God of Wine, lyrics as written and performed by Third Eye BlindThird Eye Blind’s debut album is one of my favorite albums of all time, and this song and Motorcycle Drive By are never far from my mind as two of the best, heartbreaking songs I’ve ever heard. I love the lyrics in this song so much: “Sometimes you let me inand I take it on the chin” and “Looking through, I see youSearching for somethingI could never give youAnd there’s someone whounderstands you more than I do”

This song is incredibly EPIC and the level of sadness in it is just… it makes me hurt every time. It’s about the tragic end of a relationship, and not for any other reason other than they’re not right for each other. He wants so badly to be “the one” for the person he’s singing about but he knows he isn’t.

Justin’s song - End, as written and performed by The CureI expand on how I feel about The Cure, and the album this particular song is from, below. This is the final song on the album and it’s just so full of self loathing and despair. “Please stop loving me, I am none of these things”, is Justin’s plea to Jensen. He feels a lot of guilt that Jensen loves him as much as he does, and he definitely doesn’t feel worthy of that love. 

Unpublished lyrics: Forever Earthbound, as written and performed by The RenaissanceThis song, I went looking for lyrics that would work for what Jensen was feeling in that moment. I don’t remember what parameters I used but it took some time. When I stumbled across these lyrics they just locked into place and fit.Vegas concert lyrics: Motorcycle Drive-by, as written and performed by Third Eye BlindAs I noted above, this song is never far from me. Heartbreakingly beautiful and just so full of raw emotion. So much of the music in this story is about the twisted, tangled up, fucked up thing between Justin  and Jensen, because Jensen is writing most of it.

80’s song Jensen passes out to: No One is to Blame, as written and performed by Howard JonesWhen I was writing this part, I was thinking of the movie Waitress, and this is the song that plays as the married main character and Nathan Fillion’s character begin to fall for each other, and that was when, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, the lyrics in the song clicked for me. I’d been listening to it since the 80′s and I never got that it was about the guilt and pain of falling in love with someone you couldn’t be with because they were with someone else. And it’s just SO beautiful once you understand it, lines like, “You can feel the punishment but you can’t commit the sin”. So the song was in my mind when I wrote this scene and I felt it fit so well, because that’s exactly what was happening to Jensen.

I’m the One - I’m the One as written and performed by the DescendantsThis was one of those instances where listening to the 90′s alt music stepped in and made the decision for me. I was listening to it and it just clicked in my head and I went that’s it, that’s the song where Jensen is making his frustration with his infatuation with Justin known. And the fact that it’s gender neutral with regard to the person the singer is singing about it just made it all the more perfect.Sick Cycle Carousel - Sick Cycle Carousel as written and performed by LifehouseMy love of Lifehouse is legendary (I may be listening to them right now in fact :D). They have such a way of bringing beauty and soulfulness to their music, in short, they make me FEEL everything they’re trying to convey. Every bit of confusion and sadness and beauty. Sick Cycle Carousel is about not being able to let go of this thing you know is terrible for you, and again, it’s indicative of the relationship between Justin and Jensen. There’s so much passion in it, and it stood out to me as something someone as passionate as Jensen would have written.

Song Jared and Jensen play together - In the Blood as written and performed by Better Than EzraSpeaking of passionate! THIS SONG. OH MAN. Again, it’s 90′s alt, and I hadn’t written it yet, but I was thinking about the scene where Jared and Jensen first perform together, and the lines, “It’s the way you move your hands” and “The passion that you play” hit me SO HARD. It was so perfect. I doubt the writer of the song was talking about someone who played guitar, but the entirety of the song was just completely Jared’s perspective on Jensen at that time. I even had Justin quote back the specific lines that caught my attention initially before I went and dug into the entirety of the lyrics and realized it fit perfectly.Jared’s Song - Lucky Man - Lucky Man as written and performed by The VerveAgain with the 90′s alt. This song was one that struck me as so lonely and sad. It’s basically to me about a guy who’s in love with someone else he knows will never love him back. He’s a lucky man because he feels that love, but it’s also a sad feeling because he’s in it alone. Jared wrote this song about Milo back in the day, and it sums up their relationship to a tee, and how Jared felt about it.From The Edge of the Deep Green Sea - From The Edge of the Deep Green Sea, as written and performed by The CureThe Cure is my favorite band (BTW I love your username for this reason–The Loudest Sound, right?), and oftentimes I have to stop myself from overusing their stuff in my stories. The album this song is from is called Wish, and Wish is one of those albums that coded itself into my DNA. It’s a heartbreaking album and I was going through one of the most heartbreaking times in my life, so even now, when I listen to it I have to be careful because of the emotion it invokes in me. This song in particular is so sad and fucked up that it nearly rips my heart out of my chest (particularly because I was going through something very similar at the time). It about being at the end of a relationship that hasn’t been good for you for a very long time but you just haven’t been able to let it go, and now you’re finally trying but it’s messy and complicated and so very very painful. It summarizes well to me, how Jensen felt at that time. 

When I Can - Mayonaise, as written and performed by the Smashing PumpkinsThis song has always had a special place in my heart since I very first heard it in the 90′s. To me it’s about letting go, finally, even when you don’t want to. Someday you’ll try to understand why this thing went wrong, and when you can, you will. But for now you’re kind of fucked up about it, and you reserve the right to be bitter until you can understand it better. Again, it seemed right for where Jensen was in the story.Spin - Spin, as written and performed by Lifehouse.The first HAPPY song in the entire goddamned story lol Again, my love for Lifehouse is huge, and I was listening to this song when it struck me as being perfect for the story with regard to how Jensen felt about Jared. Everything in Jensen’s life is kind of a mess, but he knows how he feels about Jared, Jared’s just this one true thing that makes sense, and Jensen wants to lock on and follow that, let it lead him into the sunlight as it were. What’s funny is that Jensen writes this very early on in the story, before he even consciously begins to realize his feelings for Jared.

So, the whole thing is sort of this give and take process. Some of it just happens intuitively, and some of it falls into place on its own, and sometimes I have to do a little work before it clicks, but it always does. I’ve always been happy with every song choice I’ve made in a fic, and especially this one.