#silmalthus

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guess who got sick and has a bit more time 2 draw now bc they don't have 2 go 2 work :3

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So I came up with this little silly idea at work to briefly distract myself from The Horrors (mental illness)...

and it wasn't supposed to be anything more than that but I just keep rotating it in my mind now..

Like I just keep thinking abt the canon blade eaters and Silva (my oc, who'd probably be a bit of a special case bc he got a full core crystal that was modified to replace his heart)

I think Torna wouldn't rlly have any moral qualms abt letting Mik occasionally munch on some people and they'd probably even let him sap some energy from their core crystal collection so he wouldn't die. Mik probably wouldn't exactly love it but he's like kind of "whatever" about it. He's working towards destroying the world anyway. Doesn't really matter when these people die.

Zeke would probably despise Amalthus for having him turned into a blade eater and he'd probably despise himself for what he has to do to survive to an extent too. He'd still be happy about him and Pandoria being able to continue to live alongside each other but ough the misery. That one scene where Zeke talks to Amalthus in Indol would hit so different too. Him telling Amalthus he thinks those who kill others are weak and then the realization slowly kicking in. He'd probably be awful at coping with it. Zeke is such a silly goose in canon xbc2 so it feels weird imagining him in any even remotely angsty situations but Idk I kinda vibe with this. Also I'm not a huge fan of PanZeke as a ship usually. They just have such oomftacular bestie vibes to me but I think I like it in this context. PanZeke angsty hurt/comfort. Pandoria comforting messed up vampire-ish Zeke, reassuring him he's not an awful person and also being his source of ether. And also she feels kind of guilty because it's a part of her core that turned Zeke into this so he also comforts her, reassuring her it's not her fault at all and he always makes sure to be extra kind to her bc of how much she does for him and how unbelievably much he cares abt her. [Explodes]

Rex would not be affected. He's not really a Blade Eater in the way the others are. Aegis cores are weird and special. And he's technically kind of dead already so even if they weren't he probably would be unaffected. U cannot convince me that Jin's attack somehow left him barely alive. He's basically a walking corpse and only tethered to the world through that part of Pythra's core and the conduit.

Amalthus would have absolutely 0 issues with being a fucked up vampire/cannibal Blade Eater. Both in terms of morals and getting ether and blood/flesh for sustenance. Tbh he'd probably get a kick out of doing fucked up vampire things even. Indol has a massive amount of core crystals he can sap energy from and nobody will truly notice/care if occasionally a few of the refugees go missing. (And even if people care, they wouldn't really be able to do anything about it. Enough people in positions of power in Indol and in Indol's military force have a cult-like devotion to Amalthus and revere him as some kind of deity. Trying to pose a genuine threat to him would be akin to commiting suicide.)

And last but not least I get to be cringe abt my oc. :3 Normal Blade Eater Amalthus and Silva are, like, two awful guys who hate but tolerate each other because of Circumstances. Silva is such a repressed but very desperate loser type of gay guy that he occasionally has Thoughts but he'd rather die a thousand deaths than actually admit anything to Amalthus or even himself; he just represses it further.

In Blade Eater vampirism AU they are awful guys who hate each other who are soo codependent and toxic. Cannibalism as a metaphor for love, enemies AND lovers, they're tearing each other apart (literally), neither of them has a normal understanding and concept of love, etc. Do u understand.. (I am,, so very Normal about them).

Silva's core was specifically modified to function as his heart since his original one was more than just a little faulty. The technology used to achieve this and research regarding it was lost like almost everything about Judicium upon the devastating attacks on Temperantia during the Aegis war. But anyway despite being a very early Blade Eater experiment - from far before Indol started dabbling in making Blade Eaters - he turned out surprisingly well. The physical link between his organic cells and his core are strong and deteriorate at a much slower rate; the only thing that got really messed up by this was his mind. He's still a fucked up vampire like the other Blade Eaters. He just needs to consume ether and blood/flesh far less frequently. He also has some of the regenerative abilities of blades. He's able to recover faster from wounds than non-blades but not quite as fast as blades and he still grows scar tissue on wounds that are severe enough.

Having a singular guy who's a source of both ether and organic material for sustenance and can regenerate is very convenient for Amalthus and far less suspicious that what he was doing before! Especially because Silva cannot exactly do anything about it. He stumbled his way into becoming Amalthus's blade and acting against him would be awfully unwise (AND being an important asset to Amalthus also grants him easy access to ether and blood when he does need it). Also while Silva is stuck in this situation Amalthus does let him get away with a lot more things than he really should (including but not limited to: verbal and physical threats and letting him bite him as well)

:33 giggling, squealing, kicking my feet, etc. They're so bad for each other but they deserve each other so very much. I love thinking abt them. They're my horrid old men babygirls ❤️

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this is a couple of days too late for valentine's day but I just wanted to draw the Blorbos being cute together ...............

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Idk if Silva would actually ever truly trust Amalthus enough to reveal his true form to him but I still like to think of what if he did. Ooough.. I am very mentally ill for these two istg orz

Also uhh super rough scribble showing off their height difference when Silva is in his true form :3

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Kicking my feet, giggling etc.

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Feeling particularly mentally ill about Silva and Amalthus again. Thinking abt their dynamics and it's making my brain vibrate.......

Silva just completely abhorring Indol and religion in general but also desperately wanting any sort of forgiveness for the vague unknowable feeling of guilt he carried with him since he became a Blade Eater. Amalthus being essentially the pope for a religious nation that prides itself in altruism and forgiveness and also him being a self proclaimed god with followers with a cult-like devotion.

Silva hating people who think of themselves too highly and authority figures but also clinging onto those kinds of people and structures that allow them to exist because that's all he knows.

Amalthus hiding all of his true emotions behind a cold uncaring veneer and Silva constantly goading him bc 1) he simply hates his ass and it's fun to torment him and 2) he wants to know what exactly lurks underneath that mask. He wants to draw out Amalthus's true hatred and unapologetically vile nature to take him down a peg.

Amalthus treating Silva as a lesser not bc he believes him to be as a Blade but rather bc he envies him for being a stronger Blade Eater - one that was made far before Amalthus turned himself into one at that.

Them desiring each other bc they cannot truly obtain/control/best the other. Them wanting what they cannot or rather should not have. etc.

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I'm still so unsure about what exactly to do for Silva's true form design but whatever, here's some more doodles of him (feat. Amalthus bc I am extremely predictable and the rot has consumed me)

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also related to last post. that drawing was supposed to be just a little self indulgent thing that's kinda out of character for them but I can't stop thinking abt Silva and Amalthus being sweet and gentle and caring towards each other . what if they still hate-loved and wanted each other dead and did horrible things to each other but eventually they also figure out that this is the closest thing they'll ever have to trusting someone enough to confide in them. like, their experiences in the world r wildly different and largely incompatible but they have in common that they're both rlly destructive, have no real direct emotional outlet for said destructiveness and any frustrations (except each other), have a general dislike for humanity for what it did to them and they're both like hella emotionally repressed. and they kinda emotionally bond over that............

they're almost good for each other, but instead of using that trust to build a stronger relationship or to truly try and heal their ails they just barely even acknowledge it and it mostly changes absolutely nothing about how they treat each other most of the time. and they're still absolutely awful (in general and for each other)