❛ I am not the girl I used to be. I am no longer desirable, I’m off-putting in some way. It’s as if people can see the damage written all over me, can see it in my face, the way I hold myself, the way I move. ❜
the girl on the train / a. / @silverveined
the scent of autumn crocuses drift past her. her girlhood remembers it well. it was the scent of open courtyards with fountains sculpted from alabaster, gardens which truly introduced the beauty of color among flowers—roses, petunias, amaryllis, crocuses, there were too many to name, too many to love. the children flocked to the courtyard when their fathers were too busy sitting in council to mind them, and the maids, bless their old soul, would always watch on the marble benches placed between shrubs.
once, as the maids watched in horror, fiora pricked herself on a thorny shrub. playfully sparring with a boy, she backed herself into the thick foliage, her limbs caught on twigs and vines, bare skin bleeding with various cuts. before the maids could do anything, a girl whose face she could not remember, but whose hands were as warm as the sunlit autumn, pulled her up from her embarrassment. she smelled the crocuses, then, in the gardens of House Vayne.
shauna’s home has not changed, however much they may choose to gossip. fiora hears shauna speak, but she does not reply yet, her hand running through the leaves, lifting the flowers and watching them rest daintily on her fingers.
❝ tell me, lady vayne, how are your hands now? ❞ she finally says. ❝ are they still pale and unblemished? perhaps a little bit rougher, large and grown now? ❞ the thorns brush against the satin fabric of her gloves but do little to scratch her. ❝ or are they scarred across the skin, all jagged lines with unspeakable tales? ❞
fiora plucks a flower, turning around to face shauna with the flower sitting between her fingers.
❝ perhaps, you are no longer desirable, but instead something to be feared in their eyes. something dangerous. powerful, ❞ fiora says, as she walks towards shauna and, lifting shauna’s hand in hers, places the crocus in her palm. ❝ and i find, my lady vayne, that is something much more breathtaking than beauty. ❞







