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[zesimi]

Commissions Open!

I know I'm not super great about social media presence, but I could really use some help spreading awareness about my commissions. I could use the extra income, even a little, with the rising prices to help with our bills. Although we aren't struggling yet, with the rate things are goin we will be. Above are some examples of what you can get through my VGen! I will also take custom requests so long as it's within my capability and we can discuss pricing if you want something particular! If you would like to see more examples, feel free to check out my VGen portfolio or my BlueSky.

Any help is appreciated, and like I said I don't really want to request donations because we aren't in dire straights, but even a little extra income would help cushion for the expected rise in prices on groceries and bills. https://vgen.co/zesimi https://bsky.app/profile/zesimi.bsky.social https://www.twitch.tv/zesimi

[zesimi]

From the beginning drawing the the final painting. I've been working on this on and off for months, with watercolors. I honestly hadn't used watercolor paints since I was a child, and it was fun(sometimes frustrating) to experience it as an adult with something a bit higher quality than walmart sets for a couple dollars! I kinda feel blown away by the differences from start to finish. This is one of the reasons I take a lot of progress pictures. It helps my anxiety, in case I mess up, but it also boosts my self esteem to see my own progress and how much my skills as an artist are growing. I still have a lot to learn! But, I'm happy with where I am now. Just gotta keep going and maybe this time next year, I'll be even better!

[zesimi]

So Dustin convinced me to go and finally get fitted for a bra while we were at the mall with my dad today. This is something I had been debating doing for a while, because I haven't been able to find a comfortable bra since I had Haley, and have been slowly inching up in sizes as guess work everytime I bought a new bra.

Was.... kind of surprised to find that my actual measurements were bigger than I expected. Although, I guess it makes sense when I think about it. But cool, now I can bra shop with a bit more ease. 34 DD is defintiely bigger than I was before kids and much bigger than I personally thought I was. Have to admit though, I'm definitely more comfortable now. And I did experience that weird thrill to buy matching lingerie for the first time in years, which I would have never admitted sounded fun until recently.

I'm super glad I let Dustin talk me into it, to be honest. I maybe kinda wanna buy a shit ton of bras now haha

[zesimi]

Today I woke up late for work because I kept snoozing my alarm. Normal, except that I don't remember snoozing it except once and it was because I was wanting to go back to dream land where I was having some great sex with a hot lady that I can't remember now that I'm awake.

A top contender for how I know I'm definitely bi, considering two nights ago I had a hot dream of sex with my fiance.

[zesimi]

Sooooo I am like 75% sure that my apartment might be a little haunted. I mean, nothing bad but something that likes to have fun and just whatever. My lights have a tendency to flicker but only in the living room and entry way. BUT, I've noticed that when I have a candle burning the lights stop flickering. Instead the flame on the candle is sporadic and flickering all over the place.

I've also heard some weird things on the monitor in the kids room a few times, once on our second night here, while Haley was at my dad's, I swore I heard a little girls voice.

It's a little creepy, but my guess is it's either some sort of benevolent or child-like spirit. It seems mostly fascinated with lights and noises, so I'm not too worried.

Regardless, it's been interesting trying to work out normal methods first but even our maintenance guy couldn't find a cause for the flickering lights and he replaced the fuses and all. So I guess we have a little roommate for the year until we move.

[zesimi]

Kind of irritated that I just got a visit from my brother, where he essentially delivered Kroger bought cookies and them told me that mom had complained to him that she was gonna start throwing my shit out that we hadn't had a chance to get over here yet if we didn't come get it soon. Right thanks, okay. You didn't even say anything to me, just sent my brother over with guilt cookies to carry your message. Congrats. I mean, I totally didn't have to budget the expense for a new tire and getting Dustin phone fixed on the only free weekend we'd had since I fell down the stairs. So fucking sorry that I've been busy. Not like you needed your son to come get his shit. Whatever. I'm trying really hard to stop being angry about it because it won't fix anything, but I'm gonna go over there this weekend and we are going to pack up every single thing I can fit in 2 cars and fucking truck it on out. I will not have you threaten to throw away shit I spent my own money on when I have legit reasons for not coming over. This is just ridiculous.

[zesimi]

Goodmorning to you too family of hate and self destruction~ so nice to know that your immediate response to me stating we didn't get the townhouse we hoped for is to point to the laundry I didn't do yet and tell me I don't do anything in this house ever and that I never clean and that this shit better get done this weekend. Gee so glad to hear you complain at me first thing this morning about how worthless I am. Certainly makes me feel all cozy inside. Just so you know though, probably would have been easier to get the fucking laundry done if you hadn't taken the washer all week instead of your usual days on the weekend, meaning I've only gotten two loads done since 2 weeks ago! But oh, woe is you for I hath not enslaved my self to do all of the chores that, well, apparently no one else does anyway in this 7 person household? Why out of the 5 adults, is it only mine and Dustin's job to clean??? I can practically hear the screaming already when I leave the house tonight to go spend time with friends. Even though it has been in my routine for 7 years, somehow I know you'll still expect me to drop it like a hot potato so I can do what you deem more important. Fuck you. I'm so sick of this shit.

[zesimi]

I dunno what it is right this second, but I have this obsessive need to write so many fics. Like.... just a mighty need for a rewrite fic for Final Fantasy XV, to continue the AU fic for Final Fantasy VIII, some nonsense fun fic for Final Fantasy XII featuring everyone's fav sky pirates, and also the on going The Arcana fic I recently started.

I in no way have the time right now because busy season started and I kinda need sleep, but I have all this inspiration just out of nowhere tonight.

I shall eventually write all the things. ONE DAY.