#simtala

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Anger

Dear Diary,

Take a deep breath, Tala, and write. Ok, here goes. It was the night Gray and I told one another we loved each other. As we were cuddling by the fire at the end of the night, my little pup Bear started explosively barking. And then we looked up and saw....him.

It was none other than the werewolf who bit me! I would always remember those cold, pale, dead eyes. The next words the man uttered hit me in my soul. As he turned to Gray he said, "Hello, nephew, I see you have something of mine." As his words slowly sank in, the confusion hit. Gray....?

As I took a step forward to look at Gray, the wolf reacted before I could blink. He snarled and he stepped menancingly towards me, raising his hand to hit me. Before I knew it, Gray was launching himself at the wolf with a roar. In a burst of speed, the wolf hit me, knocking me to the ground. Then, without so much as a pause, the wolf grabbed Gray by the throat, lifting him off the ground!!

In my stunned haze, I tried to focus on staying conscious. I heard Bear barking and I looked over with my heart in my throat as the wolf lifted Gray into the air like he weighed no more than a feather. As I heard Gray start to choke and sputter trying to get free, I was sure I was going to lose him. I told myself to get up but my head was still swimming.

The wolf finally let go of Gray's throat and threw him to the ground. Standing over him, he started to laugh. "You're weak nephew. But I suppose I would expect nothing less from my late brother's son." His gaze turned to me, and he stared at me with an expression I had only seen once before by the hunters who had found me and hurt me when I was a girl.

As the fear crystalized, I tried desperately to pull myself up. Raising my head to look into his eyes, I simply said, "NEVER..."!

His laughter stopped, and his eyes narrowed. "You belong to me, bitch" he spat. "I gave you a wolf's life. Power. Strength. I bit so many bitches and they all died. But you...you are special. You will give me what I've always wanted. A purebred pack...!"

I slowly dragged myself to my feet, looking at Gray. He was trying to recover, his gasps for breath slowly subsiding. Bear was by his side, whimpering in fear but also determined to protect Gray. The fear and anger I felt in that moment were new to me. The rage building, I looked at the wolf. "I'd rather die", I spat back at him, growing.

Letting loose a loud laugh, he simply said. "Oh, my dear. You're much too valuable. See you soon...Wifey."

And with that, the wolf turned and walked away. I dragged myself to where Gray was recovering. Wordlessly, we hugged one another. I knew at that moment that my life would never be the same.

-Tala

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Fate

Dear Diary,

Where was I? Oh right, what happened next shook me to my core! After our lovely date visitng the gardens, Gray asked me if I would run as wolves together. As nervous as I was, I knew the answer was yes before I could utter a word.

We walked together deep into the woods beyond the gardens of his house. Once we found a nice clearing, we looked at each other for a second awkwardly. I told Gray that I would change just ahead behind some bushes. He looked relieved and said he would stay put. Both of us seemed to feel the same, changing from human wolf was a deeply personal act.

As we stepped out from behind our respective bushes, I was stunned. Gray looked like ME!!! We shared the exact same patterns on our coats and the same green eyes. Gray was a bit darker than I in color, and he was taller and more muscular. But other than that, we looked exactly the same! I was completely shocked. I had only seen one other werewolf in my entire life and he didn't look like me at all.

As a wolf, I couldn't talk. But I didn't need to. As I stared at Gray, we both stepped forward to get closer. As I kept staring at this wolf in front of me, I couldn't breathe. It felt like I knew him. It felt like he was part of me. It felt like he was my.....fate.

He stared back at me, and somehow I knew he felt the same. We stepped closer until we were close enough to nuzzle each other with our noses. He sniffed me as he buried his nose into my neck, and I sniffed him back, filling my head with the amazing and wonderful scent of him. He's mine...I couldn't help but think.

As we kissed and nuzzled one another, he suddenly stopped short and looked into my eyes. There was that twinkle that I had gotten to know and love and in that instant, I knew I loved this wolf and I would until the day I died. That twinkle grew and before I knew it, he pounced and we started to roll around on the ground, playing. As I finally freed myself from his romping, indignant he was able to get me off my feet, I gave him my own twinkle.

Before he knew it, I was off in a flash. He might be bigger and stronger, but I was FAST. He started to chase me and I ran into the woods determined to win this race.

You know what? I did....

-Tala

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Gift

Dear Diary,

I was surprised with a gift today!! Gray gave me tiniest, goofiest looking puppy I've ever seen. I have never had a puppy (or a gift), and I was so overwhelmed with emotion I didn't quite know what to do. But once that little guy was in my arms, I knew I never wanted to let go.

When I asked Gray why he did such a thing, he said he wanted me to have protection when he wasn't around. I know he was worried now that he had caught the scent of another werewolf close by. I looked at the smallest puppy I have ever held and laughed, thinking of him protecting anything! But Gray said he'd grow up big and strong, and that we would train him well.

I had always assumed dogs were a no go for me because I was a werewolf, but Gray assured me that if you get a pup young enough, all he will know is that you are his pack. So I guess I have a puppy now! It's odd to feel like I am responsible for anything honestly. I live off the land, and only own only a tent and backpack.

Gray and now a puppy! As I tried to think of a perfect name, I felt a wave of uneasiness wash over me. For the first time in my life, I cared about more than just survival. I was all too aware that caring meant you had something to lose.

I shook off the unease I was feeling and decided to name my little guy Bear Paw Moon, Bear for short. Gray asked why, with a smile in his eyes. I simply told him my little guy was going to grow up big and strong and never let anyone hurt him. I prayed that was true.

-Tala

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Surprise

Dear Diary,

Gray told me he wanted to take me somewhere today. It was the first time that we had left my little island together and I was both excited and nervous. I had grown to love my island, and felt safe there.

Once we arrived I saw the biggest house I had ever seen in my life! It was his family's estate and it was gorgeous. More than the beauty of the house though, were the gardens. They were endless, full of color, and I was instantly obsessed.

Gray asked if I would like a tour of the house, and when I nodded he must have seen my face fall. That twinkle appeared in his eye, and he smiled and said that perhaps it would be best to start with the gardens.

As we walked, we talked. I was finally opening up, and began to talk more freely. I told him about being bitten in the woods so long ago, how I had wandered after being bit, too young to understand or talk. I remembered little about the wolf who bit me, only that he had had cold dead blue eyes that still scare me in my dreams to this day.

After hours of leisurely strolling through the gardens, laughing and talking, Gray asked if I was up for a run. I turned to him, questioning in my eyes. He smiled a truly woflish grin said, “Let's run free!” As I looked at him my heart started to pound.

I had never changed into my wolf around anyone. It was a deep and personal thing for me, not to mention the pain you had to endure. But as he asked me, I couldn't help get excited. What would it be like to run with another wolf? What does he look like? What would we do?

But even as all these questions flooded into my brain, I knew I wanted to run as a wolf with Gray more than anything. I smiled at him and nodded.

What happened next truly shocked me to my core…!

But alas, my pup Bear is requesting some food and love, not necessarily in that order, so I will write soon…

-Tala

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Encounter

Dear Diary,

I'm finally awake so where was I? Oh yeah!

I was having the most amazing night. I danced, swam naked, and gazed at the stars from the hot springs. I felt peaceful, free. But as I got out of the hot springs, I caught the same scent on the breeze that had been driving me crazy for weeks. Before I could react, a twig snapped behind me!

Every time I come across a human, I flash back to the day those hunters found me. It was not only the day that I was captured and held for years. It was also the day I realized how truly evil humans can be. I hate that I fear humans...because I know that as a werewolf, I could rip them apart. But my fear knows no logic.

I turned around and saw a man. I stared at him defiantly, determined not to show my fear. He looked startled and held up his hands in surrender. I said, "GO AWAY" with as much force as I possibly could, and he stared at me and started to laugh. I asked him what the hell was so funny and he said, "I've never been threatened by a naked woman before...!" I flushed and remembered I was naked but I was determined not to let him see my discomfort.

He smiled at me then, and it was at that moment I realized that there was a fully grown man standing in front of me. He was dark and muscular, his musky scent invading my nostrils and making my whole body tingle. I stared at him, finding myself wondering if he smelled even better up close.

He said he wanted to start again and without missing a beat, he took a step toward me and waved, grinning. He looked like such a goofball, I think I thawed a bit. I stared at him in surprise, my anger slowly fading. He smiled even bigger then, and said his name was Gray. I hesitated, feeling like somehow giving up my name was giving up my power, but I said slowly..."Tala".

I met his gaze and offered a small smile. Before he could utter another word, I blurted out "Bye Gray". He looked....disappointed? That couldn't be it, could it? He watched me turn to leave, his gaze slowly traveling downward. He seemed to realize what he was doing and averted his gaze. Behind me as I walked away, I heard Gray say, "I'll see you soon, Tala". I smiled as I walked away, not knowing exactly why.

My head is still spinning...I have so many questions! Who on earth was he? Why was he on my deserted island? Why was his scent so enticing? I was too scared to do anything more than retreat, and I'm mad at myself. I promised myself I would go back regardless of my fear, for this was my place not his! I'm sure that must be the only reason I want to go back....right?

Still shaking,

Tala

[damseljamsel]

Gray's Fear

Gray-

God help me. I have never been so scared in my life. Two thoughts continue to swirl in my brain since I saw Tala this afternoon. I think I'm in love with Tala. And I think she's in danger. Christ, he didn't know what the fuck he was supposed to do but damned if he'd ever let anything happen to her.

He met her at the cliffs earlier that day and took her on a hike to his favorite spot. It was a small secluded beach, which was only found after a hike through the woods. He was so nervous. He had honestly never really cared about a woman enough to care what she thought, but he found himself desperately wanting to please Tala.

He chatted with her as they hiked. He was dying to ask her a million questions starting with if she realized he was a wolf! Or why was she here? Who turned her? Why was she so skittish? But after that first day he quickly realized she was incredibly uncomfortable when she talked about herself, added to the fact that she was becoming quite the flight risk!

When they finally got to the beach, he started to draw in the sand. He realized he loved making her smile, and his goofiness always seemed to do the trick. They were laughing and joking as he drew shapes in the sand and without realizing it, he drew a heart. He stared down for a moment, then looked into Tala's face.

She was so beautiful. He knew so little about her, but he saw her strength, her fragility and her fear all at once and all he wanted to do was love and protect her from the world. And God, she was gorgeous. She was naked when they met, and that memory would be burned into his brain for the rest of his life.

He stared at her after he drew the heart in the sand, and before he knew what he was doing, he took a step toward Tala, slowly raising his hand. He was so scared that he would scare her off, but as he caressed her cheek, she looked into his eyes and smiled. He kissed her then, half expecting her to run away from him as she did so often, but instead she leaned into him, deepening the kiss. It was the best moment of his entire life. They spent the next few hours kissing and talking, sitting on the beach.

It would have been the best day of his life, but as they headed back through the woods, his heart stopped. It must have come from miles away, but faint on the breeze he caught the scent. Another werewolf….!

***Thanks to my sweet and lovely moot @igotsnothing for the hashtag...i think it's perfect here!!!

[damseljamsel]

Tala's Fear

Dear Diary,

I saw Gray at the bluffs again!

As I was hiking to my favorite spot this morning, I thought about Gray. He was occupying my thoughts quite a bit lately. Once I got to the bluffs, I was looking out at the cliffs when I caught that now familiar scent on the breeze. Gray was here! My heart started to race.

I turned around and goofily waved, just as he had the other day. He looked at me in surprise and smiled. "Hello again,” he said, grinning. I said hello softly, looking down. When I looked back up he seemed to be studying me. “Sooo…how's the hunting around here?” he asked, watching me. I didn't know what to say so I stammered and said I didn't hunt. He seemed surprised by my answer, his eyebrows lifting at my reply.

“Well, no matter”, he said. “So what brings you to this beautiful place? Not too many people know about it. Where do you live?” I hesitated in answering and he seemed to notice. He switched from questions to instead talking about himself. He said that he grew up around here, on the mainland. He loved nature and loved to find all the beautiful places that nature provided.

I stared at him while he talked, fascinated, and I remembered to smile and nod as humans should. He was constantly smiling, and his eyes seemed to twinkle when he talked. He smelled so damn good..!! As I shook my head and tried to focus, he was still making small talk, telling me about the area.

After a bit, he grew silent. Looking somewhat unsure, he said “I've been coming to the bluffs for weeks, hoping to see you Tala”, he said slowly. “I hope that's ok...”. I swallowed and looked into his eyes. "Yes it is!!" I blurted before I turned and fled.

For the second time I ran away from him, although this time I suspected it wasn't fear of him but of myself.

-Tala

[damseljamsel]

Gray Wolf

Gray is an intelligent, loyal, and fiercely protective man who also happens to be a werewolf! He came from a long line of wolves, all men, all turned in adolescence. His father once told him that it was their family birthright to be turned. Of course his father also abandoned his family so what did he know?

When Gray became a teen, his father changed him into a wolf. He told Gray that he was giving his son the greatest gift in the world, all he had to do was feed his wolf. Food, fighting, fucking....he said these were the things that the wolf needed to survive and flourish.

His father also talked about other wolves that day. He said that there were no women wolves. Men had been trying to create women werewolves for generations but when bitten, women would die a horrible death, full of pain and agony. When asked about other male wolves, his eyes grew serious and he simply said, "Never trust another wolf son....NEVER", and he would say no more. Many years later, Gray met a nomad wolf trespassing on his property. After fighting for his life and land, he knew his father was right.

Gray grew up rich in money, not so much in love. His mother was a narcissistic gold digger, whose only concerns were her weekly allowance, and her high society friends. She did not care for children, and had little to do with Gray. His father ran his own lumber business and was rarely around. He enjoyed drinking, fighting, and had a mistress much less frigid than his wife.

When he was 17 years old, Gray's life changed forever. His father disappeared. Most assumed he had run off with his mistress, who also disappeared. He left his business, his family. His mother was not crushed because her husband was gone, but instead by the embarrassment of the rumors and whispers of his father's infidelity. She killed herself 6 months after Gray's father left.

Gray sold his father's business and took the money. He kept the family estate, but only because it had 2000 acres of land. Over the years his pain has become the armor that surrounds him. He feeds his wolf with women, but none of them matter to him. He hunts and fights whenever possible but inside he knows he is numb, often wondering if he will ever truly feel anything ever again.

And then he saw her...