#since rn

[destroyourlove]

to describe how my anxiety feels or what it does to me: it feels like a monster, an unkind, judgemental monster. when i think of things that make me nervous, it takes physical forms that magnetize and comes together. it grows slowly, but its aura is there and spreads so far, that you get unsteady. it makes me unable to move, it makes me want to hide and wish i could forget.